Angry And Sad

[Casey_03]

So a colleague of mine was literally blown up by a car bomb this morning a few blocks from my house. As soon as I heard the news I couldn't believe it, couldn't process it. But now I have and it's just so unbelievably depressing. A video has been circulating of his last moments, apparently taken by someone at the scene right after the bomb went off. I made the mistake of watching the video, despite knowing it would be gory and awful. But it wasn't the gruesome stuff that bothered me. It was seeing someone I knew in that state, and hearing a paramedic say "I think he's still alive," only to do nothing. You could still see him breathing while surrounded by first responders, and nobody made any attempt to comfort him. Just pulled his mangled body out of the car and left him lying there. I have been sobbing all day just thinking of how that must have been for him, to hear people around him saying that, reacting to his injuries, and doing nothing to offer some comfort. I realize that the paramedics probably know better than I do, and maybe they knew that he'd be in too much shock to even be able to hear them/process what was happening ... but still, that was one of the most deeply disturbing things I've ever seen. And it's a million times worse since I knew him. The news is depressing enough without it being about someone I know.

 

[ladee]

I'm sorry @Casey_03, I saw this in the news this morning. There is no way that was not going to affect you, and the fact you knew him is twice as painful. And to see no one offer him a human touch while dyeing would be too much for me. And it was too close to you and the baby.
Too much has happened to you and around you for over a year or more. I hope you are giving yourself credit or having more sanity and sense than most under the same circumstances... I am so sorry for the loss of a your friend. I'm sorry you live where you do, that the babies daddy is an ass, and that you are not home safe....
I don't know how much more you are supposed to endure...
I am hoping that you give yourself permission to cry your eyes out, to be sad, to be scared. To be human. My heart hurts for you... please give Little Man a big kiss for me and if i was there, I would hug you tight, set you down, wait on you, give you a cool cloth for your swollen eyes... and just listen.... and you could talk until there was nothing left to say.... lots of hugs for another horrible chapter to your life.

 

[Mawyanne]

So a colleague of mine was literally blown up by a car bomb this morning a few blocks from my house. A...

Dear Casey, I hesitate to 'like' your post because this is such a HORRIFIC tragedy! I do like that you spoke up & posted it, though. I am so sorry that you had to experience this shocking loss of your colleague! Is it only in the movies that someone will gently hold a fatally injured person & speak consolingly to them all the way to their last breath? It is disconcerting.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am so sorry about this horrific situation and I am so sorry for your loss.:hug:

 

[Mytime]

All I can say is, I send you hugs.

 

[The Albatross]

It is very sad that in the crisis no one was available to comfort your colleague and I am really sorry for that. Often times of course your rational mind knows/understands how important the people at the scene have to prioritize things (like securing the scene, protecting the scene for further investigation). I hear your pain, and hope you can direct your emotions to something helpful to the family and loved ones or even coworkers Casey.

 

[The Albatross]

Hey Casey? Maybe you might want to explore the "anger" angle a bit more? Here or in private/on your own.

 

[joeylittle]

@Casey_03 - I'm so sorry to hear what happened. Thinking of you.