Strange Sensation In Lady Parts

[chant2012]

Earlier today I had the sensation of something coming out of me down there. It was sudden and it surprised me. I felt it so intensely that I really thought there was something down there, so I put my hand down there to feel what was sliding out of me. But I was equally shocked to find that there was nothing there.

My BF was there beside me and asked what was wrong. I said, "Something just came out of me. I put my hand down there to see and there was nothing."

So he and I talked it out kind of. And I began describing what it felt like, and I said, "Well it was like the size of a tampon, maybe bigger, but not as large as a penis... Hmm. I don't know."

Then he said, "So like maybe a large finger?"

And when he said that I thought, "Well it felt like something was coming out. But really it also kind of felt like something sliding in. But not all the way in, like just inside my vulva but not all the way inside. I can't tell if it was sliding out or something about to slide in."

It didn't hurt, if anything it felt good. It was so random and it was really strange.

I do get severe genital pain. In fact I experience it like 60% of the time I'm awake. But this sensation did not hurt.

I'm confused what this means. I've never experienced this before. I've only ever experienced pain down there. And also currents like electricity. Ive never felt like something was actively inside me. It felt so real.

I am not sure what to make of this. I have no sexual abuse memories. But I'm feeling off. Really anxious.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I'm confused what this means.

Try not to make sense out of this. If anything id tell your therapist, if you have one, and work it out. Your body remembers. Were you molested as a child?

I have a large number of 'imaginary-like" sensations down there. The sensation is real but no real, today reason.

I normally feel pain as well. Specifically a cutting and burning pain. But i feel tingling, electrical type, slippery slimy type, as well as good sexual out of no where type. All for zero reason and out of the blue. I also get arroused out of the blue and for no reason too.

My therapist took each and traced it back to my trauma. Some very specific. And as we worked on the trauma, the sensations slowed on their own.

 

[chant2012]

Try not to make sense out of this. If anything id tell your therapist, if you have one, and...

I do not have a T. I have no memories of rape or molestation. My first sexual assault that I know of was at 17 and I was touched inappropriately at age 11 or 12 albeit not on my genitals by an older boy (18 maybe).

But I keep getting more and more sensations of different types down there and they're increasing in duration, frequency, and intensity.

And I'm lost.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I have no memories of rape or molestation. My first sexual assault that I know of was at 17

Sexual assult is rape and/or molestation. So that condraticts itself.

Your body remembers but I can only give you information from personal experience.

Id also get a therapist as as they can help much more then we can here. In my opinion, you are having body memories from the sexual assult and I dont know what "cubed inappropriately" means and neither does google but I think you could have had an earlier trauma that you dont remember but your body does. Possible, not saying its is so, just possible.

 

[chant2012]

Sexual assult is rape and/or molestation. So that condraticts itself.

Your body remembers b...

Sorry, let me clarify. I have no memories of sexual abuses other than those I mentioned. I had a lot of issues as a child and it makes sense that I was (given my history, behaviors I have had since I was a small child, fears, etc.)

Also, I edited that. I didn't mean "cubed". Feel free to read edited version.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I have no memories of sexual abuses other than those I mentioned.

My point was, even with those mentioned or even with no memory of any trauma but trauma happened, this can happen.

So if that above mentioned is all that happened, your body is remembering and giving you weird-like sensations.

 

[EveHarrington]

I think you should talk to a therapist given that you have no memories. Talking to us may just put ideas in your head that aren't true.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

you should talk to a therapist given that you have no memories. Talking to us may just put ideas in your head that aren't true.

Id also get a therapist as as they can help much more then we can here.

I agree

 

[7Cs]

Never had that sensation before.
I do get sudden sharp pains... is that not normal?

 

[Megyn]

I'm new, so if I'm out of line, let me know. I'm just trying to understand.

What is your gut feeling that it is?

I'm curious because lostforgotten is telling you what he/she thinks it could possibly be, but you disagree by saying you have no memories of abuse. I can see it made you anxious, as it would anyone. I wonder if you were "looking" for a specific answer?

Again, I mean no disrespect, I'm just being honest in my question/observation based only on my personal experiences.

 

[chant2012]

I'm new, so if I'm out of line, let me know. I'm just trying to understand.

What is your gut feeling tha...

Well what I meant is in having these sensations and they feel like I'm being hurt down there. But what I mean is I have no actual knowledge of being abused sexually via penetration as a child.

I'm not sure what it means. I'm honestly confused. I'm not saying I wasn't abused like that. I am not saying I was. Because I don't know.

All I know is what I feel and that is severe pain o many different types down there and also now these pleasurable sensations.

 

[Megyn]

Well what I meant is in having these sensations and they feel like I'm being hurt down there. But wha...

In my experience, I had no recollection of the more horrific sexual abuse. I'd always remembered things like my father grabbing parts of my body as I'd walk past him, I always remembered him kissing me weird, but even then, at 25 yrs old, I didn't think it was sexual abuse. When confronted with that by my first therapist I said "that's not sexual abuse, that's just how he was. He did it to my mom too." She looked surprised and said, your mother is his WIFE, you are his daughter. I left after that session and never went back. I wasn't ready for that nugget of info at the time. It took 6 more years before I stepped foot in another therapists office, but even then I told that therapist my father was off limits. I had a nervous breakdown around 40-41 years old. Then and only then did I remotely start to admit that maybe something was wrong.

I will leave you with something my T told me that has helped me the last year: your body doesn't lie.

I'm not saying anything happened, I'm just saying listen to your body. What you felt is def confusing and scary and surreal. I've had quite a few body memories and they feel utterly real and, like you, I physically check myself to see if it happened or not- that's how real they feel.

If you need to talk, I'm always here. I'm new here, but I've been in and out of therapy quite a number of years... take care and let me/us know if you feel more, if you want to?