This is the new T. Hes PD. First session was interesting and i liked the content.
Ofcourse no connection with the T, and quite opposite of my prev. T. in many ways.
I miss my prev. T. been seeing him for 2 yrs. I cancel future appts and havent seen him for about a month.
I havent heard a peep from him. I know they dont chase clients etc. But just a lil hope all is well ..would ve sufficed.
But nope.
What i want from him.
Acceptence.
I want to feel i am okay the way i am.but i dont. Cause he forgets important things, doesnt follow up on issues, doesnt try to get me to reach my goals(which he has a list of) etc.
I keep on trying to be good enough for him to care.
He just doesnt.
I have run out of excuses to give myself on his behalf, just so i can go see him.
its clear... i am just a low priority client of his. Cant even bother to read my notes from prev session.
I hardly gained anything from his sessions... Nothing productive or insightful, the guy doesnt wanna put any effort.
Yet here i am, missing him.
Again trying to find my way back to him somehow.
Just try one more session.
Another part says have self respect. Save your money for something useful.
Late night thoughts.
Back to topic. PD so far looks promising. Just i am not a fan of the T doing it. Hes the only one close by who does this kind of therapy.
Prev. T was cbt/dbt