Depression And Death

[Deleted member 541]

Good, so you might get some time off actually, and I can stop saying REST!!!!!!

 

[Snowflake]

Good, so you might get some time off actually, and I can stop saying REST!!!!!!

Your talking to a workaholic-I escape my abuse issue through work -lol

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Snowflake Wait, just wait..... that workaholic shit will catch up to you sooner or later. It did with me, and now my f*cking body screams at me when the alarm goes off, and I litterly crawl outta bed and shuffle to the bathroom. Takes me at least 10 minutes before I can walk upright, and I can only stay upright with lots of pills...

Yup, it'll get you!!!!!!!,

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Snowflake nudge nudge..... how's things today?????

 

[Snowflake]

Your amazing!!!! And I really don't know you-just the cyber you. Lol

I'm okay-glad it's Friday. I had lots of blood work today to make sure everything is good. (Since I'm light headed) I see radiologist on Monday and I'm starting to work on trauma again on Monday -in therapy.

hope you're doing well. :)

 

[Iamsensative]

@Snowflake, just wanted to let you know that i am thinking of you. Sending prayers and good thoughts. Hope you are doing well.

 

[Snowflake]

@Snowflake, just wanted to let you know that i am thinking of you. Sending pray...

Thank you @Iamsensative

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Snowflake Thank you, but I'm not amazing. Just someone that has PTSD, has been through cervical cancer, has had breast lumps removed, and understands how frightening and scary it can be without much support.

When I had cervical cancer, I was living with my future husband. God he was such an asshole at the time, I should have known not to marry him. NO support from him at all. Actually he acted like my condition was an annoyance and could have cared less. You would have loved to have been a fly on the wall when 3 weeks after we were married, I came down with Viral Meningitis. OMG! He called me a hypochondriac, lazy, blah, blah blah. I was hospitalized for almost a week, but yeah, I was crazy. I've since had that 8 more freaking times. And he's dead, died 18 yrs ago, from alcoholism. I divorced that ass, back in the 80's. But not before he did some serious damage to my self esteem. But all is good now....

Hope today finds you well! Hugs

 

[Deleted member 541]

How's things going today? Is the pain level better? And how's the lightheadedness! Is it easing up a bit????

 

[Snowflake]

Possibly-I am lazy on weekends so that probably helps-lol. The lightheadedness comes and goes in waves and I'm trying to figure out if there is a pattern.

The pain is discomfort-it's like a bruise waiting to heal.

 

[Snowflake]

However @She Cat -I have had leg pain/cramps since May. Some days my legs hurt sooo bad-so now with the BC I hope it didn't get into my bones. (The BC spot was noticed August of 2015....wanted to see if it changed) I had ultrasound in June to see if it was clots-nope. I was told to decrease swimming -no change. So swelling. I know I'm overweight (my opinion) but not sure if it's that. Anyhow-my mind goes crazy.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Snowflake The leg pain could be anything. I have arthritis in both knees,(along with in the rest of my body) but, lately the pain in right leg is not just in knee, it's above and below too. So I'm not sure what's going on with that. I'm overweight too, but could care less.... speak to your dr and see what they suggest, or if there are any other test he/she can run.

I hear you about what you are saying, the mind can make us go places that we don't want to go. Try redirecting those thoughts, try not to dwell on them. You know, we don't have a guarantee on anything in life, including life. We could wake up tomorrow and be hit by a bus, or trampled by an horse, or die in a car crash. None of us know when our number is up, so try and live each day, likes it's your last. Celebrate what you do have today, and let tomorrow come as it will. This is what I try to do now. I let tomorrow be, until it becomes today!!! :hug: