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Dissociation Experience

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Dissociation and delusion/psychosis are 2 different things. As suggested above, you may have an alter that is delusional.

Without delusion, what you've described sounds potentially like an alter (DID), but also derealisation, which is a form of dissociative state.

More likely, particularly if you don't remember the experience, it sounds more like DID. But alters that take over generally have a pretty reasonable grip on reality. Some might think that they're younger and should be somewhere else or in a different body, and all will have their own personalities and interpretations of the world. But they will all essentially be grounded in "this world is real". The world may be confusing, but real none the less.

Derealisation could be described as an experience like 'the world isn't real', but if you add endangering yourself to get to an alternate reality, that's definitely more in the realm of delusion and psychosis.

There's stacks and stacks of causes of psychotic episodes, and quite a few of them are a once-off (for example, a side-effect of meds, so you come off the meds and there may be no more issues).

If you have a pdoc, definitely discuss this with them. The explanation given to you by hospital staff sounds a bit half-baked and "whatever it was, it's gone so it's no longer our issue".
 
Thanks so much for your replies. After the first time it happened my psychiatrist said that sometimes these things happen and the reason I don't remembe rit is because I've put it in it's own drawer and shut it off. The second time I haven't seen her about but I remember the actual incident, in hindsight. I know it isn't DID as I don't have that and been screened for it. I do though score very high in the depersonalization and derealisation section of the assessment so maybe it is something to do with that. If it was psychosis, I don't know, I'd assume I'd have more of a grasp of it afterwards. Who knows - it's all very confusing :(
 
Have you read up about dissociative fugue? It certainly wouldnt be the standard example of it but its the only thing I can think of that could be the most likely to fit.

How would you describe the feeling? How much of your identity or past are you aware of at the time? Maybe its just extreme depersonalisation and being in a dissociative triggered state. Like a form of shutdown.

I hope you are feeling better.
 
My first dissociation was when I was about 5. I was full on raped by the man next door. As I lay in the kitchen floor while he did this, I imagined myself outside with my brothers, playing. I started doing this every time I was messed with. It helped so much. I do it now so.stones in a moment of sheer horror. Just pretend your so.where good with good people. When I was assaulted as an adult I did it in the hospital as they did my kit. I wasn't there, it wasn't happening to me. It's so much better to disconnect.
 
Sorry I've not replied sooner, it happened again and this time I ended up being stopped on a bridge by the police as I thought I could jump off and enter the other universe. It wasn't a pleasant experience and being manhandled by them triggered a flashback whilst I was in the back of the police van (locked away like a criminal!!).

I'm getting really scared by it all now as that was extremely close to death I came. I've no idea what this is as they are saying I'm not psychotic when it happens but people on here are agreeing it doesn't sound like dissociation.

The thing is, when it happens I'm described as being very calm and almost serene. Whereas my usual composure is extremely anxious, sweating and shaking when in public. This is what causes so much concern amongst mental health professionals and why I ended up in hospital again. Thanks for any ideas/advice.
 
Maybe reread @Ragdoll Circus's reply again. My thoughts were very similar and still are. I had a part that very much wanted to kill us. I am not sure that part understood what being dead meant at the time.

I am curious how you were screened for DID?
 
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