Well. I Dissociated In Therapy Today..

[Gs172003]

This is the first time in a while. Then again this is the first time in a while we've talked anything related to hard stuff.

There was one point where she had me and my middle daughter meet her at the apartment that I last lived with #2. It was horrific.

We talked about it today and how my daughter felt about it and the image of the apartment came to me and bam. I was gone. Just. Gone.

If that is how I'm going to get just over that...I'm screwed.

 

[Missycat]

So sorry you had to go through that. It is awful and scary when it happens and it happens to almost protect us from the difficult stuff.
Maybe next time you and your T meet it might be worth doing some grounding work before you start discussing anything, you may then be in a better place to handle the hard stuff.
You are not screwed, your T will be able to work with you on it. Stay strong.

 

[Gs172003]

So sorry you had to go through that. It is awful and scary when it happens and it happens to almost pr...

She didn't know. We were talking about my other daughter when it came up. Then just like that... It happened.

 

[Gs172003]

You know what? I do this crap alot too. Most of the time I'm alone. I have done it while driving. Thank God I havent wrecked. How the heck am I going to get through the really hard stuff ??

 

[Missycat]

You will get through it with the help of your T. It can get harder, ive felt like ive gone backwards after a difficult session but working on grounding and self soothing has helped and i hold on to the fact that i will get well.

 

[Friday]

How the heck am I going to get through the really hard stuff ??

Carefully. :)

Which may sound flippant, but each thing in my own life that drives me absofreakinglutely insane? I can use. If I know I can't talk about XYZ? Or I disassociate with ABC? That gives me a problem to solve. Okay. Frontal assault is out -for now- so how can I flank it? Each individual piece? Gives me something to work with, or work on. Sometimes I have to back up 12 steps, or break 1 "thing" into a lot of smaller things. :banghead: Not. Patient. But horseshoes & nails*, if I keep backing up to where the series of events started? I can usually get a handle on the problem, sort it, and then the larger problem starts to sort itself.


For want of a nail the shoe was lost.
For want of a shoe the horse was lost.
For want of a horse the rider was lost.
For want of a rider the message was lost.
For want of a message the battle was lost.
For want of a battle the kingdom was lost.
And all for the want of a horseshoe nail.

 

[Gs172003]

Carefully. :)

Which may sound flippant, but each thing in my own life that drives me absofreakinglutely...

yeah... That's what my therapist said. You both suck ;)

 

[Gs172003]

Carefully. :)

Which may sound flippant, but each thing in my own life that drives me absofreakinglutely...

She told me my only way to get through this stuff is to deal with hubby #2 for real.
Ugh. Ugh. Ugh.

I was kidding by the way Friday.