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@Hooper , no thank you, I am pretty super-soft hearted but usually don't cry- I suppose what's the point?, and it feels selfish- worst case scenario I might never stop, so it's good. Different kind of tears, of gain of self-compassion than loss.
I understand. Seeing small children, it was 'weird' to imagine that must have been me, too (as it was you). But others' suffering, -oh yes.
. My greatest fears have little to nothing to do with me.
Me too. All pretty much the same as you've expressed about yourself. But add in guilt, shame, remorse; the inability to trust any of my own decisions, likely from consequences.
Hard to accept kindness; trust; risk. Even (sometimes) the basics, feeling 'entitled' to eating, etc.
Yet in many ways, not all the fault of others or upbringing; key players weren't all those always.
Difficulties knowing perhaps childhood, my personality, etc, contributed to priming me for what happened later (well 'probably' vs 'perhaps'), but you know, as an adult we are expected to choose, protect ourself, etc.
I too pretty much minimize. Minimmization, maybe denial (too).
From what you said before, and peoples' own histories, wounds etc, we have no idea what they might think or feel, or how badly it might bother them.
One of the harder parts is knowing, too, how to get around something being triggering, without saying to anyone 'why'.
I definitely got something out of writing it out.
I am glad. :hug:
If you were to come across someone who lacked in compassion and couldn't forgive you for being a victim I would be tempted to have nothing to do with them or accept that they have trauma or issues of some sort that do not allow them to see your situation for what it is. I
This is such a kind thing to say though.
Thank you so much. :hug:
