Hi, dear people,
just wanted to share this. I feared my 50. birthday much as normally i tend to get depressive already weeks before. About not having a family of my own, about not being able to work for my living, living in a huge town alone instead of in a village which I would prefer but cannot, etc. Normally this climaxes on a horrible birthdayday:-), selfmade! All sums up in that I beter should not have been born at all.
This year was special because I became 50. So even more reason to get into the dark of despair. BUT - and this is followed by a huge smile - my friends helped me to overcome this selftorturing pattern. When I started to get depressive again, one person told me to better see, what I DO have instead of focusing on what i not have achieved in life. And this time it really clicked, and I managed to turn my thoughts to the positive. I had a wonderful day and a wonderful evening, was in a restaurant with all my friends and it was so tremendously nice. They all gave me gifts and what wonderful gifts and I sat there and thought that I am a very rich person, because i have so really lovely friends.
I feel grateful today for all the love around and I am thankful for myself that i could switch to the positive and not go into the usual birthdaydrama:-)
Much Love and Light for everyone here:-)
Igasho
just wanted to share this. I feared my 50. birthday much as normally i tend to get depressive already weeks before. About not having a family of my own, about not being able to work for my living, living in a huge town alone instead of in a village which I would prefer but cannot, etc. Normally this climaxes on a horrible birthdayday:-), selfmade! All sums up in that I beter should not have been born at all.
This year was special because I became 50. So even more reason to get into the dark of despair. BUT - and this is followed by a huge smile - my friends helped me to overcome this selftorturing pattern. When I started to get depressive again, one person told me to better see, what I DO have instead of focusing on what i not have achieved in life. And this time it really clicked, and I managed to turn my thoughts to the positive. I had a wonderful day and a wonderful evening, was in a restaurant with all my friends and it was so tremendously nice. They all gave me gifts and what wonderful gifts and I sat there and thought that I am a very rich person, because i have so really lovely friends.
I feel grateful today for all the love around and I am thankful for myself that i could switch to the positive and not go into the usual birthdaydrama:-)
Much Love and Light for everyone here:-)
Igasho
