Will I Ever Be The Same Again?

[Deleted member 38644]

A lot has changed and I know I'm not going to be helped until I move to this other State to see the psych. I'm planning on retaking the ACT Exam and I can't seem to function. I feel the same as if I'm slow. I can't read anything without my head hurting and me understanding it. I feel dumb but I'm really smart. I can't focus on anything.

 

[Keen]

Sounds like things are really tough. Just hang on, things will get better, never give up!

 

[halliconkel]

I to am really smart and feel focusing is some curse . The struggle to focus makes me feel so alienated, like I'm just 1 big disfunction . My physical health is taking its toll and I really want to be myself, think positive, I pray 1 day things will be easier for us all. Love and blessings warriors.

 

[Freedomfighter]

A lot has changed and I know I'm not going to be helped until I move to this other State to see t...

So sorry for your pain, these headaches that accompany this condition are horrific. I hate them, but I can look through the tunnel now because I know that suffering leads to recognition and recognition leads to healing, all powerful tools that I am being given from a person that truly understands what PTSD is all about.

And no, I don't think that a victim will ever be the same afterwards. I am still working on accepting that, but when someone helps you to recognize that and gives everything in order for you to see that then you are a very lucky person. I consider myself lucky because I am being shown that without that help I would have helplessly spiraled from one abuser to the next, that I would have been taken advantage of from many different predators who would surely have ended my life on this earth with their possessiveness over me due to the fact that many of them travel towards me like a magnet.

To know what happens can be enlightening, but is also totally weird. There are a lot of things I know, but just as many things I don't know. Oh well ...