ADHD Pms and adult add comined is dangerously affecting my life.

[Shadowekat]

These are behavior patterns that i have struggled with for years, although there are things that didn't get worse until later, at least i was not fully aware. I not only have anger management issues, but it gets 10x worse a week before my period. also in that same week, i tend to be more inattentive and clumsier. in general, i have always have had trouble being organized at home and work and have had alot of accidents on the road that were mostly my fault due to speeding, and work related accidents that could have been alot worse because of my inattentiveness. Whats worse in the last 5 years up till now, i have had about 5 minor to majior car accidents that i came out miraculously unscathed from except for some muscle aches in my neck. after my car broke down i had got another used one last july that got in that wreck a week later and was totaled. in the past year and a half ive had work accidents in the shop floor (i'm a welder) with certain machines and the crane, minor to moderate. at one job i was let go partially for two to 3 of those mishaps in one week. at this current job ive gotten into it for breaking some things intentionally out of frustration and for frequent minor accidents that could have been worse. that have been very close by in terms of weeks, such as a bottle of gas falling on the ground, an object falling over from the crane (also due to my inexperience) ect. this week i broke a tool out of frustration and accidentally caught the crane remote on fire. which also burned my hand abit. things like this happen alot with me and its worse when my period comes...in general i have always had trouble "putting a mental break on things" i walk fast, talk fast eat fast ect. last night a dish fell and broke on the counter because of my fast impulsive movements and wanting to hurry and get things done. more and more im thinking i need meds but i want to keep trying with out them out of my own responsibility. my self confidence and trust is going down and im starting to get scared of cars, driving in general, i hate riding in the car now, and im starting to get really anxious in the workplace. im getting more and more afraid that something bad will happen to me or someone else one day if this keeps up, perhaps some thing permenately damaging and life threatening...it can also cost me my job. What can i do? should i try meds? if i go to a gyno for the PMS issue thell give me the pill, which i react badly to with many variaties..i am taking vitamin b which is helping abit with the rage attacks but not with the inattentiveness and clumsiness. if there is anything really nuralogical going on that nees to be addressed how can i do this. can anyone give me some advice? i really cant live like this any longer.

 

[ThisLifeIsBeautiful]

I'm sorry you're struggling with this. I can relate to a lot of what you said. It's a hard place to be. I'm glad you wrote this thread. I've been struggling with this too... My T has reassured me it's "normal" ... I'm like, "yeah okay, cause it feels really ABNORMAL and like I'm slowly going INSANE, but okay."

I not only have anger management issues, but it gets 10x worse a week before my period.

Yes. Me too. I can barely control the rage leading up to my period. I also become suicidal. Literally suicidal every week before my period starts. It scares me, b/c sometimes I can't distinguish those feelings from "pre menstrual rage and S/I." My T has started tracking this for me. It helps when she can point out that I'm about to start and to be mindful of that and to increase meds. I guess I could be doing this myself... you can too! Knowledge is power. The more you are aware it's coming, the more you can do to combat it.

My T has recently informed me that women who are victims of sexual assault, especially early childhood sexual trauma have a huge link to Premenstrual dysphoric disorder, which mimics PMDD basically. PMDD is a way more intense problem than PMS and is actually in the DSM-V I believe.. don't quote me on that though. I'm not sure if this applies to you, but if it does... (okay I was going to refer you to a link here, but the site won't allow it.. i must need to be an active member.. )

Instead I'll recommend you google "PMS and Sexual Assault" - MDEDGE is the site I was going to refer you to, but you'll have options. That one has the most information in one place though.

My T and psychiatrist both have okayed me taking extra Seroquel the week before my period to help control the rage. I have ADD medicine which helps me override the foggy clumsiness you speak of. Maybe you can speak with your doctors and get something to help you combat it on the week(s) you need it. I use serequel but I've heard Zoloft for one week before helps tremendously. I don't know that I have any real tangible solutions.. but sometimes for me, just knowing I'm not alone and that there's a true reason I feel the way I do, helps me keep going when I just want to sit down and give up.

Best of luck. May you find some solutions.

 

[Shadowekat]

I'm sorry you're struggling with this. I can relate to a lot of what you said. It's a hard...

Thanks. yeah i am on a waiting list to see a psychiatrist...i am going to bring up the topic of meds again combined with speaking of other treatment methods. i try medatation (due to feeling so chaotic all the time i dont do it regulary). and i have to put extra concentration into behaving a certain way trying to rewrite my brain basically which is very tiresome and as a result ill have alot of bumps. the bigges issue is the being prone to accidents, although my rage issues have also affected my job and relationship and even threaten to end it. i grew up with physical and psychological abuse and never had alot of friends and was bullied alot at the same time so that all probably factors into that. as a result i tend to put alot of people off, even when i dont want to! i tend to be a bit of a recluse and rather distrusting in general. i also tend to be pretty stubborn and its hard to ask for help alot because im afraid to annoy people by bothering them