Other Going back to triggering house... court on monday

[Deleted member 487]

I'm taking a break for some food, will be back on the road going back to the house I own. Can't call it home, because I should not fear going home. I should feel safe and comfortable there. I have court monday, so I figure I'd spend the weekend there. Maybe I'll like it and maybe I won't. Just have to wait & see.

 

[Deleted member 487]

I'm taking a break for some food, will be back on the road going back to the house I own. Can't call...

Been here since yesterday morning, and it's bad enough I can't even sleep here. Just not comfortable in my own bed. Neighbors see me, and they don't even wave or say hello. My PTSD is kicking in pretty good. Can't wait until the weekend is over and I'm back in camp.

The more crap I go through the more hatred I have for women. Part of me knows it's not right to hate all of them, but then I also know that with exception for one time I was raped, all of my past traumas are caused by them. Including the responses by counselors and cops to when I was raped.

I have a lot more to say but I also know that I'm likely in trouble already.

 

[Ronin]

but I also know that I'm likely in trouble already.

You're not, buddy. You're venting. That's no trouble. Let it out if it helps.

 

[ladee]

@cactus_jack ..I am a woman and wanting to reassure you I am not anything personal that you are sharing.
You have the privledge of coming here to share your pain and seek encourgement. You are not going to be in trouble for sharing your feelings
Each one one of us are responsible for ourself here.
So please share what you are comfortable with.
Very glad you are here.

 

[Freedomfighter]

Been here since yesterday morning, and it's bad enough I can't even sleep here. Just not comfortable...

Hey, totally understand where you are coming from. I am from Europe and when I learned what women are like here in America, well it just made me puke. Most of them are pieces of shit.... so there, I vent right here too.

Not ever ever ever ever ever ever ever would any of them get to be a friend of mine. They are so totally vain, aggressive, needy, and sexually intrusive none ever ever ever ever ever could get close to me.

 

[Deleted member 487]

It is now Wednesday. I had court Monday, and I have seen this before. They held my case until the last. THEN they called it up. I asked for Public Defender, and they did not require that I fill out a financial form.
You see, I used to be a political activist against bad cops. And now that I have multiple TBIs and PTSD the cops and courts do everything they can to come after me. It is no conspiracy theory, it is fact. I just gotta man up and fight them just as hard as I used to.

I know this is fact, what I say, because normally you have to do a financial indigency release form. BTDT. I saw the plantiffs names, state employees. Hmmm. Really? Yesterday I slept in. 17 hours sleep in a 24 hour period. I'm going to class today. Man, the stress.

And people expect me to believe there are good cops out there... Yeah. Maybe in your dreams, but not in my reality.

 

[Deleted member 487]

I am going back in a day or two. Foreclosure has been set in action. :(
I have court on Thursday. The charge is Attempted Terroristic Threats. The cause? As my lawyer said, word for word- "xyz, you cannot force the police to do their job." THIS is gonna be fun!

 

[Deleted member 487]

Had court, nothing really happened. Here at my former home, and wish I had water here. Have electric, which is nice, but no fan.
Went out in the country and scouted out a few sites in case I have to move back. They are some distance to town, but, nothing compared to current. 112 miles, 2-1/2 hours, one way, if I stay at camp. Actually a little bit further, I suppose. Compared to 30 minutes away and 15 miles, or so, one way.