I Think I Have A Problem

[Deleted member 38242]

I've been drinking four to five nights a week, and smoking pot for the past three months to deal with my trauma. Usually I stop when things get bad. This has been a problem for me on and off over the years.
I was going to quit yesterday but proceeded to drink a 6 pack, and smoke pot.
I was going to quit for a month. I wanted to know if anyone has had substance issues here. And how you stopped.
I'm on medication and almost feel back to my old self, but I'm not. I'm drinking, and hanging out with losers. I don't want to keep doing this.

 

[Deadman]

I completely understand the alcohol issue. It was part of my self medicating for a few years. Luckily for me the alcohol stopped filling whatever hole in me it was filling and I just stopped drinking. I found the only thing worse than being hypervigilant and angry all the time was being drunk, hypervigilant and angry.

The title of your post makes me think your real question is, "Do I have a problem"? Since you say you want to quit drinking and smoking pot and can't that is a definitely problem. Luckily there are lots of resources out there for people who want to quit drinking.

 

[Deleted member 38242]

I think I'm definitely filling an empty hole. Im going to start only hanging out with sober people. I'm done with drunks. I tend to do what I'm around. Sober would be nice. Hope comes with being sober. And recovery from PTSD is now my main priority as of today.

 

[ladee]

I ended up in rehab. So at least you are aware there is a problem. You are self aware this is harming and not helping.
Hope you have a T you can talk to about this.
Mine was a twenty year run and I had to have serious help getting off of everything. Hope yours will be easier than that was.
You are not alone. And having that commitment to PTSD recovery will help.
Gentle hugs if you accept.

 

[Deleted member 38242]

I'm going to go to meetings to get support again. Everyone I know drinks daily, and smokes pot. I get board and lonely and go say hello for company, but the area I live in has a ton of bars, and alcoholics. I have lived this lifestyle for six years now, and I do go sober, but always end up back in the same trap.
It can be problematic for me as I'm sensitive to situations and tend to drink with people because it's what everyone is doing. I feel like crap now that it's been three months of doing this 3-5 nights a week depending.
I think PTSD is the main cause of my drinking, and trying to fit in where I feel like I fit in. I don't want to have this be a problem in my life anymore. I don't think where I feel I fit in is healthy. So many alcoholics around me. I don't like drinking this much.
I want to get healthy. I need to support myself, and tell others no.

 

[ladee]

And we are supporting you on saying NO.
Meetings will help you get back on track.
We are here for you!

 

[Deadman]

Everyone I know drinks daily, and smokes pot

Is there any way for you too find a new group of friends? People who live a healthier lifestyle?

 

[Deleted member 38242]

Is there any way for you too find a new group of friends? People who live a healthier lifestyle?[/QUOTE...

Yes, actually I have a lot of people who are sober. I need to make time for them again. I've been on and off again with drinking for 6 years. It's boring, and I waist so much time, and life. Guess it's time to grow up a bit. Got my fishing license today, and that requires early mornings with an elderly non drinking neighbor. So I think it's time for me to find new things to do is all. I can't quit smoking without giving up everything else. Making health a priority for now. I'm just so board with the lifestyle which seems dead end now that I've been going to bars on and off for six years. Waist if life it seems for everyone who is a heavy drinker I know.

 

[charismaria]

I'd like to recommend the resource FAVOR, if a location exists nearby to you. I also have self medicating habits that I would like to change about myself.