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[Citizen PTSD]

Also I would like to ask, has anyone ever black out during anger (not drugs) and drove or went somewhere u didn't remember? I woke up in a parking lot 3 county's over yesterday completely sober, covered in sweat and not knowing whereally I was. All I remember is destroying the outside furniture, punching the post on the porch and getting in my truck. Whenever I get that mad or upset it doesn't feel like me, it feels like someone else is doing it then I black out. Also after every episoDE I get really tired and usually fall asleep with 1 hour.

 

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Last year my girlfriend (now ex gf) hit me with my truck and shot me in the face in the same night...

Hi there Citizen Welcome
Thanks for the post. I am sorry for your trauma and for the way the the legal system does not work for victims. I was never shot but I had the side off my head smashed in a motorcycle wreck and have worn a beard ever since to hide the scares and disfigurement. Like you say It just looks like I have a lazy eye that is sunk back a bit. My sight is still ok.
I am glad you were able to find us and come and tell us of a very traumatic night in your life. I'm sure you will find others that you can relate to here. It is a good and safe place come and share our experiences and learn from others who have been there. Again welcome I hope you find the answers you need.
Peace be safe.

Also I would like to ask, has anyone ever black out during anger (not drugs) and drove or went som...

That is called dissociating and common I think in ptsd survivors. I am still learning about it. I loose time I am not sure how much or how often my T thinks that it is happening to me a lot. ex; I sat down with a bowl of boiling hot soup and the next thing I know I take a bite and it is completely cold. I have had several episodes like that not sure how many. I have had other times that I have separated from my body and was looking down on my self. I have had a few episodes like that that I know of. I also have big blocks of time gone 6 to 8 weeks gone. They think I have been doing that most of my life now and I am 62 now. I have ended up places not knowing how I got there I am getting a little worried about my driving. So I don't drive a lot and when I do I am very careful. I have had to pull over now a few times to regroup coming home from therapy is the worst. I am going to start having someone drive me to therapy.

 

[Citizen PTSD]

Hi there Citizen Welcome
Thanks for the post. I am sorry for your trauma and for the way the the leg...

Yeah I'm 23 years old just to fill u in about myself, I have had a hard time driving lately. Which is weird bc I have great motor skills and am athletic and in good shape but my driving has gotten bad... ex. yesterday while coming home after 5 days of treatment I told my mom I could just drive us back bc she had to make work phone calls. I felt so weird and parancid about driving I had to pull over again and let her drive me home. The dissociation has been happening more and more frequently. I'm thinking best case scenario it is just the normal dissociation caused by ptsd. Worse case scenario multiplet personality disorder; the frequent and sometimes long term memory loss has happened in the past year. That's what I was told in treatment at a psych hospital this past week. I'm still trying to figure all this out.