Mood Crash Dive

[Anglesachse]

I have been in a state of gunning for a scrap the last week or so, But I have had my wits about me, and have been avoiding situations where I am likely to smack some dick head.

It is good when you can read the signs and steer yourself clear of colateral damage.

Yesterday the same again, and then on the way home, (I had been driving which is rare), We get about halfway and my Mood just swings for no real reason I could see.
I was just not me, as in it wasn`t me controling the vehicle and not my body sort of thing.

There was no traffic, no stress, just me the car, the misses and my nipper all quite. And boom, I wasn`t there and could have driven into a tree. I noticed the change and pulled over so the misses could drive.

What got me was simply the drop off in mood for no reason, I mean the shop was an easy day no stress nothing. It just caught me totally unaware and unprepared.

When we got home, I changed and sat down in my chair, and was out in seconds, the misses woke me up to have dinner, and as soon as I was finished I was out again, couple of hours later the misses woke me again and when I went to bed I slept till 0500 straight.

But the "not me" feeling stayed all night, with the feeling that you are trapped and who ever controls the body is laughing and grinning at you. Like allmost having fun at your suffering.

I guess something must have been draining all the energy, but I have no idea what, and not knowing is annoying me today. I am glad I slept well and feel great for it, but I thought I had the moods, and feelings thing packed pretty tight and could see most things coming.

On the upside, the gunning for a scrap has gone.

Guess we realy do have days, when even the best of us get caught out by the beast

 

[Ned]

I reckon it's reaction to overload, whether we realise we're being overloaded or not.
I get a similar thing, just come over all tired and detached and dopey. Like you say, the positive is a complete absence of agression. I don't think it is a mood or feeling, more the body and mind taking time out from them.
So in a way maybe it's healthy?

 

[Anglesachse]

....I get a similar thing, just come over all tired and detached and dopey. Like you say, the positive is a complete absence of agression. I don't think it is a mood or feeling, more the body and mind taking time out from them. So in a way maybe it's healthy?

Yeah I know what you mean. It was less of a mood, just wasn`t sure how to explain it.

The thing just caught me totaly unaware. And that is never good when sat at the wheel. Like I said though, today is rosey.

Just bugged me that I didn`t feel it coming. so I guess I still have some learning to do.
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[Wagon]

Man. I've been reading about bad days all over this Forum now. The only thing that seems common is that they are there. But I also start to wonder abt "Modern" science. I'm taking my cue from from my teeth here. I have periodontitus in a serious way. Teeth going south. Now one would think there was some sort of modern solution to this....there is. Rip out all your teeth and get new ones...thats it.

Then I read that they know the cause. It's just because there are 500 pathogens in the human mouth that they can't figure out which one it is. Bull f*cking shit. You can find a Planet with oxygen a few thousand years away, find a cure for polio, genetically sequence every living thing on earth and you can't find one in 500 pathogens in a known area.

Oh. am I hijacking the thread? I'll be done soon. really. Just stand in the corner there. Oh shut up, I used silk rope.

Same thing with PTSD. Sometimes I think this is just all hit or miss science. Look at us. We all periodically run things into the ditch.....stay there for days. This being with meds, without meds, with shrinks, without shrinks, young, old, whatever. It happens. So why has not anyone strapped some chemical measurement device to one of us for a month? Where is the research outside of the obviously slanted VA?

Somehow I have a feeling it's just awareness and money. Not enough people aware and not enough money to be made.......or too good a money to continue the problem. Some problems are far too lucrative to solve....hence my teeth problem.

Sorry abt that Angle. We will now return to our normal programming.

 

[Sarg]

Angle, I'd trade ya but I like ya too much!

Sarg

 

[Anglesachse]

LMAO no worries guys. LOL

 

[Ned]

Just bugged me that I didn`t feel it coming. so I guess I still have some learning to do.
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I don't think you can see that particular reaction coming. It's a bit like hiccups.
I would not be too harsh on yourself for that one.

 

[Need an Oasis]

But the "not me" feeling stayed all night, with the feeling that you are trapped and who ever controls the body is laughing and grinning at you. Like allmost having fun at your suffering.

I get it too. It feels like looking at yourself from the outside. As if whatever is happening to you feels "unreal." If that makes sense. I get it when I'm very stressed or very exhausted. My shrink calls it dissociation.

 

[BenP253]

I hate when you need to keep your cool, but the only thing you want to do is punch someone in his face.

 

[Anglesachse]

Well this threads been dormant to long and I have a reason to be here, sadly.

It is 15:05 here in Germany, I am sat in the shop, sorting orders, got a couple of people in playing but nothing stressful or loud.

And it has gone a gain, I have no idea where it went or why it bugged out, but none the less my Mood just crashed dived again.

Maybe just getting everything sorted out for the weekend, has been going on the last couple of weeks and everything is now about 95% in place. Over the next 2 days I am on a Convention as a retailer Sat and Sun, as well as organising a Tournement there on Sunday. Here in the Shop we have 3 Big Tournements over today and tommorow.

The shop is going to be packed with in excess of 150 pax. A lot of organisation was involved, and at this time it is now to late if I have forgotten anything.

Maybe it has been the stress of getting everything sorted then again maybe not, maybe just having my head involved in other stuff like trying to help others., none the less it is f*cking annoying when the bastard cathes me off guard.

Times like this, it is like the Beast stalkes up behind you, knocks you out, and places the "F*ck it all and give up" pill in your mouth.

And taking a time out is not on the cards either. I have another full weekend next week aswell which is still being organised.

I am just so down at the moment. I might even fall of the radar for a while.

 

[Need an Oasis]

Shit Angle, I'm sorry. I'm not sure what I can do, but you can PM me anytime if you need to, I get my PMs via e-mail on my BlackBerry. We're in the same time zone, I'm just a lot further south.

 

[Zipperhead]

Remember why you're doing the tournaments. Try to take part and not just officiate. And if that isn't in the cards, keep your back to the wall and watch the till/