The very fact you have reached out, and are expressing your true feelings and thoughts is a victory !! don't know if you see it that way , but it is.... you are in a lot of pain and anger and feeling hopeless... I have been there, more than once, and even at your age... I had no one and no where to go.... I understand how you are feeling, and the hopelessness is the worst.... and not being heard... I still struggle with this today and I am way way older than you... but pain and hopelessness does not have an age... it is how we see the world... and for us it is the truth and we need to be heard about our truth..... and I hear you.
Possibly you can just hang around here for awhile, and read and participate here until you feel a little calmer and possibly 'a part of things' here... that can be a great beginning to getting help...it all feels too overwhelming right now... and not knowing which country you are from , we aren't sure what to direct you to... but hold on to your anonymity.... that is important right now... and man do I understand that part....
Just to be a person on a space that shares hope.... and victories.... and set backs, but shows us how to move past the setbacks.... this is a very safe place for you right now... and I am very glad you took the risk to say how you feel.... and to let us know you are here.... just asking you to hang around for awhile, and read and participate if you want.... get some footing....
I understand your rage... some thing I felt most of my life, and it did help me to hang on, whether society understood or not... try your very best not to harm anyone or anything... and most of all yourself... give yourself a chance..... a chance to feel a part of a place where many feel and think the same way you do..... we will help by hearing you.... you DO deserve a chance to have a life... you just don't believe it right now.... neither did I.... Can you just hand out with us for awhile? That's all I'm asking.... and see if anything here helps.... then we can help you to get some real help ..... you matter.... we know where your pain is coming from.... and we are here for you.... you really are not alone, tho maybe in real life, but here, there is always someone willing to listen and help.... hoping you understand how much courage it took to let us know you are here !!!!