What emotion do you dislike most in yourself?

[Changing4Best]

We have trouble controlling our emotions, or at least I do anyway! I assume you do too. Some emotions get us into trouble. Some just plain HURT ourselves and others too. Some cause relationships to end or be very troubled. Some do give relief, but may be embarrassing.

So what emotion do you hate feeling the most? What emotions have gotten you into trouble the most? What emotions give you the most relief? (But maybe embarrass you the most)?

God gave us our emotions for a reason, but sometimes I think we may not know what the reason was! Sometimes emotions do help us too, though. Maybe you remember such a time?

 

[Changing4Best]

I guess I should answer my own question: I have mood swings, so this is a difficult question actually. I think suicidal thoughts, or deep sadness is the worst. Depression, in other words. I don't get there that often, but when I do, I have at one time attempted suicide, so I know how dangerous it can be. I told no one I was planning it, took 4 months worth of my medications and didn't plan on waking up. I guess God had other plans, because I did wake up, some 2 weeks later, in a hospital. However, they told me that I almost did not make it. I came close to dying! By my own hand. Because of the hopelessness about life at that time that I felt. (I was homeless and had an abusive boyfriend who was date raping me every day). So it is a kind of combination of these factors that I think I dislike most, feel the worst in that mood and in general am working to avoid that by reading a PDF that a friend shared with me:

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She shared it just today with me here, in fact, on this Forum.

I'm in a much better frame of mind now, of course. No longer with the abuser, no longer homeless, I even have a small job now! I feel so much better about myself. However, I cannot forget, nor can I be careless, about such emotions when they hit me. They are very dangerous! I'm working to avoid that kind of thing ever happening to me again!

 

[WishfulThinking123]

I guess being emotionless is what I dislike the most- I'm surprising myself with this answer. I guess the T is working??? lol

 

[Changing4Best]

Actually, @WishfulThinking123 I have been working in this PTSD Workbook by Sheela Raja PhD called OVERCOMING TRAUMA AND PTSD and in it, it says that we often feel numb or have little emotion, as some kind of defense mechanism against all that has traumatized us, or words to that affect.

 

[MyWillow]

Fear. Hate it in myself. Can see it in animals and it motivates me to help them - I'm a behaviour and welfare scientist. But fear in me? Hate it.

 

[Deleted member 42957]

I dislike frustration the most.
I don't like to face any emotions. I don't talk about or show them to anyone.
I cannot deal with my emotions which all end up in Frustration.
Frustration
Frustration
Frustration

 

[Changing4Best]

Fear. Hate it in myself. Can see it in animals and it motivates me to help them - I'm a behaviour and...

Wow, you being a Behavior and Welfare Scientist is really cool, and I sure can understand hating fear. It is a really uncomfortable feeling, agreed.

 

[Rani G2]

Because of the hopelessness about life at that time that I felt. (

Hello Sheila,

you have come a long way! I can relate to this.

I dont like the feeling of "wanting to be liked" by other people. I like to be a survivor someone who doesnt need "others" to be ok. Everytime I get that feeling of wanting someone to be close with me, I feel weak.

Thanks for asking

 

[Changing4Best]

Hello Sheila,

you have come a long way! I can relate to this.

I dont like the feeling of "wanting to be liked by other people...

Yes, I have had a thing recently where someone rejected me after having been seemingly my friend. The person now talks behind my back about me, gives me the "Silent Treatment" when I am near him, and in general even goes out of his way to make snide comments while I am present, that sometimes are directed at me personally, or sometimes are just sort of snarky way out there kind of sort of related to something I am doing or have done recently that our group knows I am doing or am up to.

I have had a hard time with this until I realized that it really does not matter what this person thinks of me. I also looked at the kinds of things he does and says to others. None of it is polite or at all pleasant in any way. He calls people names, makes crude jokes that cause women especially to feel uncomfortable and slighted in some way.

Who needs someone like that in their life! I don't. That is for sure. So I am better off without his being my "friend." I use quotes, because as I look back at our "friendship" I can see nothing of value that ever happened in it.

 

[Cannottakethis]

So many feelings I dislike.
Desparation is one of the worst for me.
Lonely
Rage

 

[expectingbetter]

Guilt
Fear

 

[The Albatross]

Fear
rage
frustration
are three but to me they are an unholy trinity from which all other bad emotional stuff springs