A,
Thanks so much for doing your best to take away the semblance of self worth I had worked so hard to maintain... thanks for wanting or demanding I always believe in and stand by you, while simultaneously doing whatever you could to belittle or betray me.
Thanks again for all the many slaps, times you entrapped me in the house or car and terrorized me with screaming and threatening that I was gonna end up in intensive care "eating through a straw".... putting me in a state of fight or flight panic mode, and keeping me trapped there until you eventually beat the s*** out of me.
I especially appreciate your intentionally withholding basic things expected in a relationship or things you knew were special to me or any woman-- such as purposefully not giving me a card or flowers on our anniversaries or valentine day... for the things that might seem more minor but still were hurtful invalidating and made me feel so small and I guess made you feel bigger.
For putting such a point to be "the nice guy" to outsiders, being friendly helpful charming while behind closed doors treating me like a slave basically.
Thanks most of all for taking advantage of the trust I placed in you, for throwing the love and faithfulness I gave back in my face.
I hope all the times you put me down, hit and beat me you won't soon forget. While I have to live with the effects of what you did, in a way so do you-- and while you might be worried what the judge will think, it could turn out the harshest judge of you that you will eventually have a come to Jesus moment with, is you--the man in the mirror.
Love, D
Thanks so much for doing your best to take away the semblance of self worth I had worked so hard to maintain... thanks for wanting or demanding I always believe in and stand by you, while simultaneously doing whatever you could to belittle or betray me.
Thanks again for all the many slaps, times you entrapped me in the house or car and terrorized me with screaming and threatening that I was gonna end up in intensive care "eating through a straw".... putting me in a state of fight or flight panic mode, and keeping me trapped there until you eventually beat the s*** out of me.
I especially appreciate your intentionally withholding basic things expected in a relationship or things you knew were special to me or any woman-- such as purposefully not giving me a card or flowers on our anniversaries or valentine day... for the things that might seem more minor but still were hurtful invalidating and made me feel so small and I guess made you feel bigger.
For putting such a point to be "the nice guy" to outsiders, being friendly helpful charming while behind closed doors treating me like a slave basically.
Thanks most of all for taking advantage of the trust I placed in you, for throwing the love and faithfulness I gave back in my face.
I hope all the times you put me down, hit and beat me you won't soon forget. While I have to live with the effects of what you did, in a way so do you-- and while you might be worried what the judge will think, it could turn out the harshest judge of you that you will eventually have a come to Jesus moment with, is you--the man in the mirror.
Love, D
