Depersonalization

[Mr. M]

I struggle with Dissociation. Primarily Depersonalization Disorder and Derealization. It can be very disturbing. I also struggle with Time Distortion. My sense of time is screwed up big time. Days feel like weeks and months like years. My world feels fake even though i know it's real. It's like I'm in a dream waiting to wake up. I feel like I'm looking at the world through my eye's. Like I'm on the inside behind a window piloting my body through an alien world.

 

[Emily L]

This may sound like a strange question, but do you have any out of body experiences???

 

[ladee]

Welcome ! Do you have PTSD along with your other diagnosis? It would help to know that in order to give you an answer that isn't off track.

 

[Mr. M]

Welcome ! Do you have PTSD along with your other diagnosis? It would help to know that in order to give...

Yes. I have CPTSD or PTSD with complex trauma.

 

[Mr. M]

This may sound like a strange question, but do you have any out of body experiences???

Yes. When I get really upset, like during an argument, I step to the side of myself. It's like watching a movie.

 

[ladee]

Thanks for answering... i feel like you do a lot of times... you didn't say your age, but i have done this most of my life... it doesn't bother me so much anymore.... it is my normal, and of course only those that are here understand. If you are in Therapy, hopefully you and your T can work on this... it can be crazy-making at times.... but part of our experience with PTSD.... I have very few situations that I can remember just looking out of my own eyes.. it's me watching me.... in a way, sad that so much damage was done that it's safer to have a lot of my life be this way. but I am also at the stage in my recovery of acceptance of many things that others don't understand.. and I am alive....

I hope you get to work on resolution on this,or the beginning of learning to be present... it takes work.... but sounds like you are willing to do that work .... glad you posted and glad you found us....