Anyone else just feel exhausted?

[Freida]

T told me I'm tired because I'm so busy holding off my emotions it takes up all of my energy. Great....:banghead:

 

[mumstheword]

T told me I'm tired because I'm so busy holding off my emotions it takes up all of my energy. Great.......

I think that's me too. So repressed in so many ways. I can't afford to lose it. Not safe. I just hide instead. Life is not fun at the moment.

 

[Freida]

I can't afford to lose it.

yep. Right there with ya. No words of wisdom --just a note that I'm down the hole with you

 

[ms spock]

I so get it @Freida and @mumstheword. I tried to do things today and I got stung by a wasp for the 12th time in the last three weeks. It feels like every time I try to do something I get hurt. I am disconnected from my self and my emotions, and it is a slog at times. I am just in the process of giving up emotional eating so it is all happening for me.

I got out for a bit after a struggle for most of the day. I went to the library, then I went to buy groceries. I do better with routine myself.

 

[user44376]

My soul is tired and hurt. I feel exhausted and have come to really despise people who keep throwing “go lift brah” in my face as some kind of exercise panacea.

 

[Warrior Chicken]

@AddHomnym same....sick of me telling myself “go workout you’ll feel better” usually followed by “if I could punch you in the face it would feel better” but the angle just isn’t right for the full effect.....can’t get the proper hip rotation :inpain:

 

[mumstheword]

I so get it @Freida and @mumstheword. I tried to do th...

I think you are pretty legendary with how much you address and apply and persist and continue to redress @Disco Dancing Queen .

My eating is improving back to how I used to eat. More vegetarian and healthful by the day. Lots of resisting and saying no and taking the time to get myself something different to my family who don't have the same issues, like obesity. I hate admitting that I've become obese but I just had to go buy size 16 and 18 clothes so I can't really deny my more-than-a-little-overweight problem.

Going into hospital early next month, then I will be getting down to pretty much full-time gyming, swimming, yoga, NIA, walking, dancing, mindfulness practise and therapy until my health is radically improved. And I've already started the diet improvements and new years therapy regime so I'm well on my way!

Right now my kids are still on holidays so it's kinda all about them for the moment, in terms of daily planning but next week I'll go back to yoga class and ease into my new regime, which is a lot like bits of my old regime only more body and recovery focus than ever before. At least until my weight and energy levels get back to more "normal" .

 

[ms spock]

I think you are pretty legendary with how much you address and apply and persist and continue to redress @Disco Dancing Queen .

I have really had to find my own ways of managing things, because my triggers were so wide ranging and various. I really have had to do very dedicated drilling down of things and work on things in bee's baby steps at times, it has been quite a demanding experience. And because I was so emotionally dysregulated from such a young age due to the physical/emotional and sexual abuses starting to young I really had to work around a whole lot of things.

I had to start really, really, really small so the bounceback didn't knock me over. So 15 minutes per night and morning of yoga nidra, which was carefully recorded for veterans with PTSD, etc. It has taken so long to get where I have gotten. It has been a really hard slough. But it is much better to be part way along on the journey than not on the journey at all.

My eating is improving back to how I used to eat. More vegetarian and healthful by the day. Lots of resisting and saying no and taking the time to get myself something different to my family who don't have the same issues, like obesity.

Great news! And it is not easy!

I hate admitting that I've become obese but I just had to go buy size 16 and 18 clothes so I can't really deny my more-than-a-little-overweight problem.

Me too, ditto! The only thing was I was so dissociated it just didn't really connect, even when I had to buy bigger clothes!

A song for everyone feeling tired today! Rhiannon Giddens - Wayfaring Stranger

I'm super curious...is there anyone else that just feels exhausted all the time?

The symptoms of PTSD (heightened awareness, heightened sensitivity, dissociation, etc) all cost physical energy. Which could explain the fatigue.

Yep.

I have a few different kinds.

Adrenaline Crash ... SleepDep (I wake up tired and go to bed wide awake) ... Depression

I got a sleep study done and found out I have apnea and got one of those weird little machines. Hoping that helps cause poor sleep is a huge issue in feeling exhausted...But w/PTSD it makes sense to be exhausted. Being on high alert alone is exhausting.

but I know if I am not rested... have myself scattered in too many directions... trying to keep PTSD symptoms at bay, and I just get to the point I can't put one foot in front of the other...

as well as re-learning how to breathe, move, and talk to myself were some of my greatest saving graces.

I'm always exhausted.

I feel tired a lot. Not very motivated to do much.

Man, I have melted into this chair...tired to the tenth. Feels good to feel calmer and less on guard. Good god...

I can't remember the last time I woke up feeling ready to run a marathon instead of having just finished one.

Stare at the ceiling, toss and turn, fall back asleep.

yep. Right there with ya. No words of wisdom --just a note that I'm down the hole with you

My soul is tired and hurt.

same....sick of me telling myself “go workout you’ll feel better” usually followed by “if I could punch you in the face it would feel better”

I just hide instead. Life is not fun at the moment.

And one of my favourites because I relate to the depth of longing and despair within it. At The Purchaser's Option - Rhiannon Giddens at Augusta Vocal Week 2016

 

[Rani G2]

is there anyone else that just feels exhausted all the time? I'm not on any meds (yet) so it's not a side effect - although that concerns me as my doctor wants to subscribe me something next visit as we dive more into this all

@RCD_VET. Yes. Exhausted 24/7, fatigueness and getting all kinds of infections for many years. During the last 2 years I have more energy, on different kinds of supplements, diet changes, Weight training and Yoga.
Alternative therapists have been helpful so much far. I dont know how much disgusting teas and herbal stuff I took, but it helped.

 

[Sea_lady]

Yes, I feel exhausted most of the time, and that is deeply debilitating. I am not depressed now, but the fatigue is immense... I think stress is like a vampire draining one's energy.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

I wake up exhausted.

Yes, especially when I'm actively working through memories or I got triggered by an event. Then I find I can never get enough sleep. I take naps here and there throughout the day. I'm finding exercise helps a bit. Also taking my vitamins and supplements and eating better. Some days I eat better than others.

I had one T assume I was depressed years ago. I went to a doctor, as the T suggested, and got on an antidepressant. Soon I was sleeping 12 plus hours a day! The doctor took me off the antidepressant and tried a sleep medicine. I started sleeping 18 hours a day. She told me to quite taking it.

With another T I learned that I wasn't depressed. I was diagnosed with complicated grief coupled with PTSD. That makes more sense to me. I had lost four dogs in 17 years. They were my buddies and helped me with my PTSD symptoms. Their deaths were also triggers yet it took three more years to find that out through my newest T.

I can't remember the last time I woke up feeling ready to run a marathon instead of having just finished one.

That so much describes how I feel on some mornings or afternoons depending on when I wake up.