I decided to go with her, he replied really kindly that he understood, that made me change my mind. So I’m seeing him Friday to talk about decision-making. So I don’t know. I like the scarier option. I don’t understand how a therapist could be “emotionally unsafe” as another person mentioned. I don’t think he will damage me. And I’m very forthcoming with him. Just scared there. So I can share with both of them.
Haha it actually just ended 20 min ago. I like him a lot. He’s very relaxed and chill. I’m really comfortable with small talk with him but not anything important. I’m going to give it a shot but I think I’ll have to really take charge of my therapy and prepare for each week with what’s important. I love that he will let me email him each week although he said he prob wouldn’t reply cause I could take something wrong which I get as I used to twist my old t’s responses and get mad. The emails will make up for what I can’t/don’t say there. And I like that it’s uncomfortable as hell because it’s good for me to sit with that.
It’s incredibly good. I made the right choice. Tons of mutual respect, I don’t obsess about him or therapy, I’m comfortable but also anxious (since it’s therapy) but it’s a reasonable level. It’s a very healthy relationship. Which kinda freaks me out lol
wow. that's good news. especially not having the anxious obsessions... I needed to hear some hopeful news!
