believing that you were better before hand can be a bad thing in the long run, the fact that your asking about it here, and that you went into therapy in the first place says a lot about the big picture when it comes to where you are with your trauma.
I have been down this road, just around 2000 I went off all meds, and stopping getting mental health care, and did so until 2016 when everything caught up with me. Prior to 2016 my Mental Health care did not address my trauma, and even if it would have I was not trusting enough to allow it to happen.
Therapists are like fine wines, they come in all flavors, and what works for one person may not for another. I recently terminated with my therapist because things were no longer working between us.
You may consider trying another therapist, until you find the right one. It helps to know what you need and want beforehand. Sometimes it helps to prepare the new therapist for what you need. For instance, my new therapist has the benefit of a detailed abuse history and hospitalization history and now has some understanding of how I got the way I am, what I struggle with, what triggers me, and what took place that led to some of my mal-adaptive behaviors and cognitive distortions (part of the problem with the old T is she would not go near trauma stuff, did not even want the detailed history. From her perspective she just needed to know I had a history.)
You may want to give it another go, until you find the right T for you.
Its a lonely place being stuck with all that comes with trauma, and no path towards moving forward and away from all that comes with your trauma.
