5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Teasel]

▪I'm so glad I'm not like him.
▪How utterly awful to spend your life seeing value in no one and no thing.
▪I'm glad I'm me, ptsd an all.
▪He tried shaming me for my mental health this week and it didn't work one bit.
▪Just helped me see him more clearly.

 

[MrMoonlight]

-need to get my shit together and stop bellyaching.
-I will start exercise tomorrow
-I will start visiting my safe place 3x a day (set reminders in phone)
-I will set aside time everyday to read in my workbook. (no matter how sucky it feels)
-I will refocus on my ptsd treatment, becoming stronger and more knowledgeable. (escape the depression tar fields)

 

[Muttly]

1) this fatigue is ridiculous and worrisome
2) Or do am i just that clueless as to how hard I've been going and the sleep issues I've had
3) I looked at a weather blog and confirmed, it's been much wetter than normal and somewhat cooler
4) it is not raining at this moment and I should walk the dog but I really want to nap
5) why isn't my shift key working

 

[MrMoonlight]

-going to workout. (have done so the last few days and know I will feel better maintaining a schedule and my body)
-therapist wants me to reach out and express myself on this site. (difficult for me pair words with feelings, I don't let myself go there)
-I will work to find a walking spot in the high country. (the heat is coming and the tall pines really do something for my spirit)
-I will set time aside to complete the first work section in my workbook.
-I want to write about how I feel at 3am in a more thoughtful way.

 

[CdnCopper]

1) What my life would've been like had I not been a cop.
2) How much I hate 6 months of winter.
3) If my mechanic screwed me over.
4) About one of the times I had to pick up body parts.
5) About a work colleague who committed suicide before he retired.

It's a dull, cold, gloomy day and I'm a negative nellie on steroids.

 

[Muttly]

1) I am one massive ball of stress. not completely sure why. I'm at the library trying to chill because I'm not really fit for driving
2) oh, did I have other thoughts?
3) nope
4) but I get stuck on rules and feel like I could
5) I wonder what my T would do if I randomly showed up at her office and said I was a wreck... of course I'd never do that.
6) this is all stupid attention seeking
7) that's an inner critic type thought
8) brain, stop thinking
9) why the f*ck did this guy have to sit so close

 

[Lionheart]

1.) Beginning to understand why I am so protective of animals, children, and loved ones...they were the first in line for mistreatment and abuse during my childhood.
2.) That was then, this is now.
3.) Still kinda cold outside, is Spring going to arrive soon, I wonder?
4.) Kittens...I need kitten therapy. :):p:D
5.) It is a good day. I think.

 

[intothelight]

1. Countdown clock is clanging again and I am playing beat the clock all over again.
2. Putting my composting bin together,
3. I can do this and it will be OK
4. Where is the bad ass confidence when I most need it?
5. I will not cry, I will not wallow, I will not indulge it self-pity. Changing my frame of mind is possible.

 

[Muttly]

@intothelight You can do this.

1) Well, second day on the job felt much better.
2) I'm bummed I didn't get to see the guinea pigs
3) I must walk the hyper mutt today
4) I think I will nap first. Do I set an alarm or just sleep?
5) I'm glad for the new job, it's a good distraction from everything that happened in therapy yesterday.

 

[Ronin]

1. That was cute.
2. Sorry, R. That color of the sunset was an entirely different year.
3. Whatever. Ye Qu Shijian.
4. ... even if I probably misspell it. Because not missing.

 

[Muttly]

1) For a moment, I was worried that elk was going to charge us. It's early, but I wonder if she had a calf down in the brush. Really glad I had both dogs on the leash.
2) I'm thinking I might nap. I will be really, really glad when this fatigue lifts
3) It was a wonderful walk though.
4) I'm thinking I need to stop fighting the fatigue and accept it and see if resting will help. Heh, what a wild and crazy thought.
5) I was also a good boy and iced my knee after the walk. The doctor was so annoyed. Well too bad bud, it's my knee. Obviously I overdid it but you getting pissy that my knee isn't "pristine" like after my last visit helps nothing. Maybe it would have helped if you provided more post surgery info. Huh, well... I guess I was annoyed by that visit.
6) yes, nap

 

[Chiqui]

1 There is a wall in my mind the when I try to "reach" my thoughts.
2.- Feelings and emotions, too. I can' identify them...its as if they are "high secret info" and I haven't hoy the enough rights for access...
Me don't trust me..
3.- Mr. Robot series. Just watched. I am going to "miss" the familiar feeling I develop with some series.
4.- 15 Days of bad/insomnia sleep. Definitly, being sleep when others are awake its a selfprotection tool. I wish things would be different.
5.- Spring!! Time for growing and learning.