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@joeylittle No, I can take as many breaks as I like. No need to take classes this semester.
Thing is - I've known this stuff about myself for a long time. I know I struggle with even TALKING to people. So since I was a kid I would force myself to talk to people. I'm the person who strikes up a conversation with the cashier in the grocery store. Who says, 'I love your hair!' when I see someone with pretty hair. Who says, 'Oh what a sweet puppy!' when I see someone with a cute puppy.
Because if I stop forcing myself to talk to people I'll just never talk to anyone and I don't want the silence to win. But I've been doing that for so many years - I'm in my 40s now - and I'm not winning... I'm just not letting the silence win. It's like endless tug-of-war and I'm not letting my rope go, but I'm not making any progress either.
Thing is - I've known this stuff about myself for a long time. I know I struggle with even TALKING to people. So since I was a kid I would force myself to talk to people. I'm the person who strikes up a conversation with the cashier in the grocery store. Who says, 'I love your hair!' when I see someone with pretty hair. Who says, 'Oh what a sweet puppy!' when I see someone with a cute puppy.
Because if I stop forcing myself to talk to people I'll just never talk to anyone and I don't want the silence to win. But I've been doing that for so many years - I'm in my 40s now - and I'm not winning... I'm just not letting the silence win. It's like endless tug-of-war and I'm not letting my rope go, but I'm not making any progress either.