Unsure - newly diagnosed

[Veevivianvee]

Life has a funny way of doing things... I was recently diagnosed with C-ptsd. I have no clue how to feel..it honestly hasnt set in yet. I'll probably never tell my family, but I just wanted to get it out somehow. Feel like crying but i have no idea why. i also felt like things made more sense but now the only thing i know is idk how to feel.
What helped you when you were first diagnosed ? How did you feel? Any suggestions at all will help greatly

 

[ladee]

I felt relief !!! Everything made sense, for the first time in my life. And there was help specifically, for what my life had turned into. I was not alone, having to keep my 'crazy' hidden or locked down.

Glad that you reached out here. We all understand. Different people have different experiences with the diagnosis.

Read the 'Articles' section of the Forum. It may help you to understand more. And read some of the threads that resonate with you.

Sorry for the reason you are here, but glad you found us. This is where you will be supported and understood.

 

[Veevivianvee]

I felt relief !!! Everything made sense, for the first time in my life. And there was help specifically, for what my life had turned into. I was not alone, having to keep my 'crazy' hidden or locked down.

Glad that you reached out here. We all understand. Different people have different experiences with the diagnosis.

Read the 'Articles' section of the Forum. It may help you to understand more. And read some of the threads that resonate with you.

Sorry for the reason you are here, but glad you found us. This is where you will be supported and understood.

Thank you ladee!
I actually joined this site a while ago because i was dating someone with ptsd and we broke up. I always thought i just had high anxiety all this time, ooohh but the irony ? I seriously can't help but laugh. Things definitely make sense now , but hearing my therapist finally say this is my diagnosis was kind of shocking. I'm just trying to get over the shock of things i guess.

 

[ladee]

You will. It doesn't define you anymore than having diabetes or any other symptoms. It's just an answer to many questions. Now you can get focused on healing. If they told me I had EIEIO, I'd still have to do the work..

And yes, I think the irony would throw me worse than the actual diagnosis !!! You are in the right place, but for YOU now. Let your self be seen here and you will get a lot of support and validation and suggestions if you ask for them. Glad you are here.

 

[grit]

CPTSD is not recognized here but I was diagnosed PTSD and I was like OK sherlock holmes!!! it was obvious to me for all my life but I was suppressing to deal with it.

I am happy for you to have this information because it does become handy learning more about and this site is really good. There is a lot of information - real information that can help.

How to feel? This is tricky. My only advise is this. Your body has all the feelings not your head, so pay attention to tension in the body and be more conscious of body and it is attempt to communicate with you. IMHO, Cptsd is in the body. it is something that started before language and thinking. So listen to the body, sleep, digestion, skeletons, and skin.

 

[Changing4Best]

I had a Therapist recognize it, which made me feel more like a certainty that she is right and also some kind of feeling akin to relief. It was like that uncertainty was finally gone. Now that we had a diagnosis, we could build a plan of how to go about fixing me, rather than focusing on what it is that is wrong with me.

 

[Veevivianvee]

CPTSD is not recognized here but I was diagnosed PTSD and I was like OK sherlock holmes!!! it was obvious to me for all my life but I was suppressing to deal with it.

I am happy for you to have this information because it does become handy learning more about and this site is really good. There is a lot of information - real information that can help.

How to feel? This is tricky. My only advise is this. Your body has all the feelings not your head, so pay attention to tension in the body and be more conscious of body and it is attempt to communicate with you. IMHO, Cptsd is in the body. it is something that started before language and thinking. So listen to the body, sleep, digestion, skeletons, and skin.

Grit ,
Thank you for your response . I completely believe what you mentioned about paying attention to my body.
For years ive suffered health wise and drs could never physically find something wrong with me .every time i feel stressed i feel it in my body, and to me that would automatically translate to oh im sick! Or ohh my body hurts" and I would run to the Dr and when they couldn't find anything wrong with me i felt insane and completely misunderstood.

I had a Therapist recognize it, which made me feel more like a certainty that she is right and also some kind of feeling akin to relief. It was like that uncertainty was finally gone. Now that we had a diagnosis, we could build a plan of how to go about fixing me, rather than focusing on what it is that is wrong with me.

:) I feel that way about it now. Took me some time to get over the initial shock, but I've been reading threads and articles and booy have i been going ah ha! That makes sense. It's relieving but a little scary at the same time because i dont physically have anyone who would understand . so im glad I found this website when i did.

You will. It doesn't define you anymore than having diabetes or any other symptoms. It's just an answer to many questions. Now you can get focused on healing. If they told me I had EIEIO, I'd still have to do the work..

And yes, I think the irony would throw me worse than the actual diagnosis !!! You are in the right place, but for YOU now. Let your self be seen here and you will get a lot of support and validation and suggestions if you ask for them. Glad you are here.

Thank you ladee !
Your comments truly have helped me <3

 

[Sweetleaf]

I have no clue how to feel..it honestly hasnt set in yet.

I know exactly how you feel - I felt like that when I was new to the diagnosis. It does take a while to set in - for me it took trying to address it, really digging into it, over and over, and having it stir things up, make me react - seeing the symptoms long enough, and noticing how they corresponded to triggers and such things, made it sink in for me.

I was fairly emotionally numbed at the time of my diagnosis - and still in denial about a lot of my trauma - but I felt a lot of what you're describing. I've cried over it at points - and it also makes my life make so much sense.

I was diagnosed with PTSD initially, but my current pdoc says that I have CPTSD. Pretty much had a lifetime of trauma, it just took some extreme events for the PTSD bomb to get set off.

But the fact my whole childhood, and most of my adulthood, was traumatic - finding that out, accepting that, coming out of denial on it bit by bit, has made my life, and how it's gone, make so much more sense.

What helped me when I was newly diagnosed the most, was this site - also, my current pdoc, she's really really good. Without her I'd probably be in a psych ward or something.