Please talk to me (again)

[EveHarrington]

I am not doing well. I came out of the hospital and went to PHP. They put me on a new med and the mood crashes are back and they are bad.

I asked my mom to take me in tomorrow. I can get referred from PHP into the hospital. (The ER experience is horrible.)

I am going to miss Christmas. My sister is coming into town and I’m going to miss seeing her and my nephew.

I can’t stop crying.

I won’t injure or do anything bad because I promised my mom I wouldn’t. If I break this promise, she will then make me go to the ER next time. I do t want that.

Please, words of support, anything. I’m looking at an apartment that is messy, having to pay bills, and at least try to clean it (I won’t get into why), and of course I have to pack.

?

 

[Wendell_R]

I'm so sorry. I will imagine being with you and keeping you company, and I wish I could help with the packing and cleaning. Thank you for asking for support. Do let us know what else will help you.

I am glad that you taking care of yourself by asking your mom for help and remembering your promise to your mom.

 

[Placebo]

I have missed a lot of family gatherings because of my ptsd, and having to be institutionalized. I can say looking back it is ok today because I know I couldn't help it. Medication can be very difficult to deal with I understand from experience.
It's amazing that you won't self harm, and a small victory you should be proud of. I wish I was their to give you a big hug. Your a very strong smart person to be able to get medical help, and get back into a hospital from the PHP.
The way I see you is probably much different than you see yourself. I see a smart, caring (about your family, and nephew), and strong individual when I read this post. I see someone who should have hope about recovery from this situation; you have all of the qualities some one needs to get better.
I'll keep you in my heart, and try to send angels your way tonight.

 

[EveHarrington]

I’m just so scared.

This fck up was so big. I lost one supporter. But at least I know my mom supports me 100%.

 

[Wendell_R]

It makes sense that you're really scared. Navigating this stuff is not for the faint of heart, but you are working through it.

It's okay to lean on your mom. You've done a good & brave thing to ask for help, you are doing the best you can, and you can move forward from this. The mood swings are not your fault. We are with you in spirit.

 

[EveHarrington]

I’m just so scared!!!

 

[Warrior Chicken]

Sending all my warrior chickens your way, you need them more than I do. Send them back after you can smile again. Wishing you can see the strength I see in you, but know how hard that is to do. Takes SOO much strength to ask for help, glad you did. Takes even more to not self harm.
You are strong.

 

[joeylittle]

Hey - don’t know if you still need it, but sending support.

 

[EveHarrington]

I’m better tonight. Thank you!

 

[Freida]

Happy to hear you are doing better! :hug:

 

[TTC18]

But at least I know my mom supports me 100%.

I'm so glad you have this support!
Glad to hear you're feeling better as well.
Sending hugs and support!!! :)
:hug:

 

[LuckiLee]

I hope you're feeling better. There's nothing wrong with having to take care of yourself. Sending love and support your way. XO