How do you cope with disturbing body memories and intrusive thoughts? I always feel like someone is touching me down there. It feels so disgusting. Currently processing it in EMDR, but it seems to make the sensation worse. Sometimes younger people trigger me, I'm guessing since I was assaulted when I was underage. I hate it so much and just want to hit myself to make it stop. It makes me suicidal. I just want to clarify that there is NO pleasure or fantasy regarding my trigger. Please tell me I'm not the only one going through this?
