Hello Everyone - Bullying

[Aggie]

Just found this site. I've been on the ptsd journey for years. My journey started in 6th grade from a beating I received from older kids and being hung upside down by my feet from a balcony. I was young, small, and immature for my age. The beatings continued into high school. Some years and days I didn't know I would survive. I wrote a book on a ww2 vet who suffers from ptsd. Seeing what he goes through helped me to identify and understand why I had certain triggers. Anyway, I'm curious to see how this forum goes...

 

[PerfectEmpire]

Welcome to the forum. I can relate to your post because I was bullied very badly in school too. I came to this forum last year after I got triggered and started looking for help online. I find that keeping a Trauma diary here really helps. Are you seeing a therapist?

 

[Frog]

I am sorry to hear about your experiences. I can fully relate. Bullying is one of the most damaging forms of abuse in terms of the mental, emotional and physical damage it can cause yet, at least here in the UK, the damage is so underestimated.

I really hope this forum works out well for you and you get the support you deserve to deal with, perhaps come to terms with, the bullying you suffered and that you no doubt still suffer as a consequence of.

 

[Aggie]

Off and on. Need to be more consistent. Sometimes when things are overwhelming it helps. Hits me out of the blue sometimes. Thx for the reply

 

[Aggie]

Thx. Sometimes I am amazed at how quickly a trigger can impact me. At least now I've identified what is going on.

 

[NIKI]

Hi Aggie, I also was bullied in school, mostly junior high. I know how much it hurts and how scary it is. I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I wanted to say welcome and I hope you can find some help here. NIKI

 

[Iam]

Hi Aggie,
Welcome to the forum. I am glad you found it ;o) I am sorry you had the horrible experiences you did at the hands of your peers growing up. I too was bullied by my classmates. Not physically, but emotionally from early elementary school through jr high. It was awful and only served to reinforced what I believed to be true about myself.

There is so much information here that will help you understand yourself, why you feel and do the things you do. My husband was so blown away when he came to the site and read the info and posts here. We both now have a much better understanding of my reactions to things. It was all such a mystery to us before we knew I had PTSD, let alone what that meant.

You will also find a lot of support here along with insights from other sufferers that will help you.

Again, welcome. I look forward to getting to know you ;o)

 

[Frog]

Hi Aggie,

Wanted to know how you are getting on.. one thing that stood out from what you shared was the graphic nature of your trauma, being hung upside down, so you could have died!?

I know from my experience of knowing that I could have died or at the very least been seriously injured left me horrendously shaken.. that experience of total vulnerability, at the fragility of my life, remained with me as very intense emotions, and the change that happened inside - while I looked no different on the outside, though just to contradict myself - there is sometimes a change in my demeanour and expression at times that people notice + stay clear of me because of - I knew I had changed as a person irreversibly.

I relive that fragility and vulnerability every day. I don't know about counselling personally, it is such a personal, private experience and I found that going to sessions was difficult as it pent up but by the time the session came round I'd be silent or couldn't express anything articulately enough to benefit from it and progress in any useful way to me.

Value your openness sealing with this kind of pain. I was never taken seriously for bullying abuse, so thank you.

being hung upside down by my feet from a balcony. Some years and days I didn't know I would survive.

 

[Aggie]

Thx, there is some solace in talking to those who have experienced it..