Cypress
Confident
So for the past two days I’ve been having an intrusive memory from a time in my adolescence when there was a lot of trauma going. I hadn’t had access to this time in my life previously so this I thought this meant I was more connected to my parts.
While I was in therapy today talking about it, I suddenly felt this heavy weight of sadness and hopelessness and the distinct feeling that I was actually in the city where the trauma happened. I kept having to ground myself over and over. Well, the whole day has gone by and I still have this intense feeling that I am in this city. I took a long walk thinking I would feel better but the streets looked, smelled and sounded like the city where all this stuff happened. I did everything I usually do to ground myself in the present but the sensation just creeps right back: I am hopeless and in this other city. I think I am going nuts. I don’t know how else to get out of this sensation except to maybe take a sleeping pill and hope I feel better in the morning.
Anybody ever had something like this last for hours? What is this?
While I was in therapy today talking about it, I suddenly felt this heavy weight of sadness and hopelessness and the distinct feeling that I was actually in the city where the trauma happened. I kept having to ground myself over and over. Well, the whole day has gone by and I still have this intense feeling that I am in this city. I took a long walk thinking I would feel better but the streets looked, smelled and sounded like the city where all this stuff happened. I did everything I usually do to ground myself in the present but the sensation just creeps right back: I am hopeless and in this other city. I think I am going nuts. I don’t know how else to get out of this sensation except to maybe take a sleeping pill and hope I feel better in the morning.
Anybody ever had something like this last for hours? What is this?