Reaching Out But No One There

[brokenchild]

Cynthiatoo - I've only see my GP twice and I've never seen this psychiatrist. I just started the Celexa on July 30th. She said she didn't want to increase it for at least two weeks, unless we have to. I didn't have any negative side effects from Celexa.

I've been on Paxil, Prozac, Effexor, and Celexa in the past. The only one that seemed to work was the Celexa.

I'm doing a lot better drinking fluids now. Not the eating so much, but the drinking.

I know it will get better. I just didn't think it would get this bad again.

skyp56- I don't give up, it's just extremely hard.

Niki - Thanks.
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It's just so hard when no one seems to understand and I don't want to bother those that do understand.

 

[Iam]

Ohh BrokenChild,
I am so sorry.....I understand what you mean about never thinking you could get so bad again. That is a huge fear for me, because I know how deep in that dark hole I can get. I was told to never go off the antidepressants because of my susceptability. I am hoping and believing that therapy that addresses my traumas will make the difference of being able to manage my symptoms well enough not to relapse into a deep depression.

I am glad that you are seeing a psych. Have you gone thru therapy before?

 

[brokenchild]

Iam - I have been in and out of therapy since I was 3 or 4 years old, so it's definitely not new to me. Seeing a psychiatrist is kind of new. I've seen one before, but didn't like her. She just kept giving me medications, and then started giving me medications to counter act the the side effects of of some of the other medications. That's when I took myself off everything.

 

[Iam]

Yeah.....unfortunately I think that is what most Pyschiatrists do.....they are MD's so drugs seem to be the answer. Not that I disagree with meds but it certainly isn't the end all, be all. Will this Psych be doing therapy with you too? Or just prescribing?

 

[Cynthiatoo]

We Need To Help It Helps Us

Cynthiatoo - I've only see my GP twice and I've never seen this psychiatrist. I just started the Celexa on July 30th. She said she didn't want to increase it for at least two weeks, unless we have to. I didn't have any negative side effects from Celexa.

I've been on Paxil, Prozac, Effexor, and Celexa in the past. The only one that seemed to work was the Celexa.

I'm doing a lot better drinking fluids now. Not the eating so much, but the drinking.

Brokenchild
The psych. said "unless we have to. I think that means when you are so down like this. I think your psych would want you to contact her to talk about upping your dose.

I am so glad you can get yourself to up your drinking, that is so important and I do know how hard it is. It is like our throat and everything from our top opening to our bottom one just constricts. When I have a yell in the car because I feel awful, I immediately start burping. We think its because alll the little muscles along the throat and stomach and intestine constrict up. So much of this is actually physical response and when we find what works to release the tension the terror subsides.

I know you think you are a burden, but that is The PTSD Monster talking. It is not the truth.

 

[brokenchild]

I'm not as depressed as I've been, things are getting better. I've only been on the Celexa for about a week now, and I know it takes longer than that for it to really start working. I don't want to rush an increase if I don't have to.

 

[Gloria]

I just looked at my medication reminder (sunday, monday, tuesday, etc.) and realized I have taken my cymbalta for 7 days. Well, that might explain my tears and suicidal thoughts. I like what Cynthiastoo said. I'm going to remember it. Normally, I feel I have too many friends, my phone is always ringing, people always e-mailing or stopping by. But it seems when I get depressed, I don't have anyone to talk to. I think the reason is that everyone wants to be around me when I'm up and cheerful. When I am feeling down, I had someone today tell me to call them back when I'm feeling a little more up. I get really tired of being supportive of others but when I'm feeling down, no one wants to hear about it - mostly I "look good". I don't physcial scars. My life looks good from the outside.

Hand in there, Brokenchild!!! You are not alone. I am praying for you and thinking of you tonight!!
Hugs!
Gloria