Life is too overwhelming

[Live2love]

My life is a living nightmare. PTSD has taken over my whole entire life. The terrible abusive marriage I was in is now causing my whole entire family not only to put up with my fear worrry anxiety the police told me and my family to relocate for our safety since my ex husband is seriously that crazy and to top it off we have a year old daughter together my first baby girl it has been such a hard fight very hard long divorce battle but in the long run he kept our house all the vehicles every asset I walked away with no Alimony no child support nothing but very thankful to be alive and my daughter is healthy and alive but It’s been so hard. The nightmare the flashbacks the FEAR the WORRY the forgetting to breathe the social disarray I feel sucks I have no one to talk to but my therapist once a week. I probably deserve all of this for marrying him and believing all the lies for years. I should have listened to the red flags. It’s no one faults .. but my own. My own fault and now I’m suffering tremendous consequences for my own actions. It’s just a part of life, part of nature, survival of the fittest. I’ve been suffering and fighting for so long.. I’m far from “fit”.

 

[Gs172003]

My life is a living nightmare. PTSD has taken over my whole entire life. The terrible abusive marriage I was in is now causing my whole entire family not only to put up with my fear worrry anxiety the police told me and my family to relocate for our safety since my ex husband is seriously that crazy and to top it off we have a year old daughter together my first baby girl it has been such a hard fight very hard long divorce battle but in the long run he kept our house all the vehicles every asset I walked away with no Alimony no child support nothing but very thankful to be alive and my daughter is healthy and alive but It’s been so hard. The nightmare the flashbacks the FEAR the WORRY the forgetting to breathe the social disarray I feel sucks I have no one to talk to but my therapist once a week. I probably deserve all of this for marrying him and believing all the lies for years. I should have listened to the red flags. It’s no one faults .. but my own. My own fault and now I’m suffering tremendous consequences for my own actions. It’s just a part of life, part of nature, survival of the fittest. I’ve been suffering and fighting for so long.. I’m far from “fit”.

As hard as it is to believe it's not your fault. I'm glad you're safe.

 

[HisDaughter]

I am very sorry! And I also am very glad you are meeting with a therapist. Would you consider visiting a church? Interacting regularly with people can be beneficial for your emotional well-being. What about seeing your therapist twice a week? You've been through a lot, so it can be understandable that you feel the way you do. I would recommend not to blame yourself. Take care of yourself.