osiris
MyPTSD Pro
I’m freaking bad at this.
A couple of weeks ago I was really struggling and bellbird asked if it would help to have people help write an email that I could send to T. desiderata was awesome and did, and I cut and pasted and added stuff and sent it.
When T replied (and when we later discussed in session), I ended up back peddling a bit as I felt like I had done something wrong in speaking up and needing more help. So I left myself alone to deal with some pretty crummy feelings without support.
Then this week I had a meeting with my boss - I’m swamped, really struggling, super triggered at work (still!), but when I tried to say how bad things are I ended up talking about how I realise how difficult everything is for everyone in the company.
*screaming in my head*
I don’t have a real life support system. I have spent from my teenage years til now basically dragging myself along with very little help. I can be tough as nails (which can be a good thing), but I am aware that I have almost no fight left in me.
So.
How do you break down the habit of a lifetime and seek help? And then accept help when/if it is offered?
(I consider it a baby triumph that I’m writing and asking you guys for help).
A couple of weeks ago I was really struggling and bellbird asked if it would help to have people help write an email that I could send to T. desiderata was awesome and did, and I cut and pasted and added stuff and sent it.
When T replied (and when we later discussed in session), I ended up back peddling a bit as I felt like I had done something wrong in speaking up and needing more help. So I left myself alone to deal with some pretty crummy feelings without support.
Then this week I had a meeting with my boss - I’m swamped, really struggling, super triggered at work (still!), but when I tried to say how bad things are I ended up talking about how I realise how difficult everything is for everyone in the company.
*screaming in my head*
I don’t have a real life support system. I have spent from my teenage years til now basically dragging myself along with very little help. I can be tough as nails (which can be a good thing), but I am aware that I have almost no fight left in me.
So.
How do you break down the habit of a lifetime and seek help? And then accept help when/if it is offered?
(I consider it a baby triumph that I’m writing and asking you guys for help).