I had my last smear test in 2015. I’m 41 now, always went to my smears every 3 years (I’m in UK), never missed one and always normal results. I’ve posted before about this but my anxiety has gone wild again that I’m 2 years overdue and women on Instagram saying it’s very common to get changing cells and if you don’t have a smear it’ll turn to cancer etc are changing cells that common?
Too much info but I’ve not had sex in 9 years. I’m married but after what happened to me I developed chronic fatigue syndrome, ptsd and anxiety, sex was the last thing on my mind. I became agoraphobic and socially phobic so I’ve not seen my doctor for a few years. She’s great and we do telephone appointments if needed. I’m just worrying myself sick I’m so overdue and these horror stories I see online that changing cells are so common make me panic even more.
it comes into my mind ag some point each day and my anxiety races. I beat myself up because I’ve always kept to appointments but since the ptsd caught up on me a few years ago I’ve become housebound, socially phobia etc and I’m overdue most appointments. Dentist, doctor, etc. I hate myself as it’s not me. I’m a mum who would never ever neglect herself because she has 3 children who need me here. After the sexual assault 13 years ago and then my brother physically assaulting me 8 years ago I kept pushing myself to do everything I needed to do and to give my kids memories etc but in 2018 I just broke down and had a nervous breakdown with severe anxiety and agoraphobia and the CFS/ME got me. It broke me and I haven’t left my home much at all since and can’t see people other than my family at home that I live with.
Like I said I’ve always had ok results, only slept with 2 people my whole life and not had set in almost a decade. I did go on the contraceptive pill to help my heavy periods in 2012, I came off it this year and I read it can increase the risk of cervical cancer so that scared me too. My pill was low dose 20mg. It helped my symptoms a lot but I came off as it’s now discontinued here.
I probably sound a complete idiot. I never would avoid appointments until I broke a couple of years ago. Smear tests and anything medical have become a huge panic attack trigger for me. All trauma related. Right now I just can’t push myself to do this appointment and I know no one can tell me I don’t have cervical cancer but I needed to cry and type this out somewhere safe.
Too much info but I’ve not had sex in 9 years. I’m married but after what happened to me I developed chronic fatigue syndrome, ptsd and anxiety, sex was the last thing on my mind. I became agoraphobic and socially phobic so I’ve not seen my doctor for a few years. She’s great and we do telephone appointments if needed. I’m just worrying myself sick I’m so overdue and these horror stories I see online that changing cells are so common make me panic even more.
it comes into my mind ag some point each day and my anxiety races. I beat myself up because I’ve always kept to appointments but since the ptsd caught up on me a few years ago I’ve become housebound, socially phobia etc and I’m overdue most appointments. Dentist, doctor, etc. I hate myself as it’s not me. I’m a mum who would never ever neglect herself because she has 3 children who need me here. After the sexual assault 13 years ago and then my brother physically assaulting me 8 years ago I kept pushing myself to do everything I needed to do and to give my kids memories etc but in 2018 I just broke down and had a nervous breakdown with severe anxiety and agoraphobia and the CFS/ME got me. It broke me and I haven’t left my home much at all since and can’t see people other than my family at home that I live with.
Like I said I’ve always had ok results, only slept with 2 people my whole life and not had set in almost a decade. I did go on the contraceptive pill to help my heavy periods in 2012, I came off it this year and I read it can increase the risk of cervical cancer so that scared me too. My pill was low dose 20mg. It helped my symptoms a lot but I came off as it’s now discontinued here.
I probably sound a complete idiot. I never would avoid appointments until I broke a couple of years ago. Smear tests and anything medical have become a huge panic attack trigger for me. All trauma related. Right now I just can’t push myself to do this appointment and I know no one can tell me I don’t have cervical cancer but I needed to cry and type this out somewhere safe.