Movingforward10
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So I seem to be having little ruptures with my T these last few weeks. Nothing horrendous, but it still hurts. Things like: calling me by my old name not my new onein one session as a mistake; and today not picking up on something I found hard to say (but this could have been a connection issue with her WiFi) and also then saying something about my relationship with her that upset me. I said I wasn't ready to let her go and to replace her with me. She said it was ok unless I put her in a position of being more powerful than me. For some reason, I took offence to that. For me it felt like I was wrong to want or need her. And I felt shamed in my need for her.
I don't want to have negative feelings about her. I don't want these ruptures.
I get that they are meant to be healing and happen.
I just don't know how to see the healing from it.
I feel pathetic. Like I need too much from her and I'm stupid to want it or articulate it. Which makes it even harder as I'm only learning to articulate my needs and I feel I have been met with rejection.
How do you work through these ruptures with your T?
Any advice to give me?
My T said that she thinks we are ok and she hopes we can get through this. I hope so too, as I am desparate to.
I don't want to have negative feelings about her. I don't want these ruptures.
I get that they are meant to be healing and happen.
I just don't know how to see the healing from it.
I feel pathetic. Like I need too much from her and I'm stupid to want it or articulate it. Which makes it even harder as I'm only learning to articulate my needs and I feel I have been met with rejection.
How do you work through these ruptures with your T?
Any advice to give me?
My T said that she thinks we are ok and she hopes we can get through this. I hope so too, as I am desparate to.
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