PTSDisaster
Confident
My biggest issue is trusting my boyfriend, and my biggest trigger ís my boyfriend. It's been a really hard time gaining trust. I've been really clear that trust and honesty are the most important things in the entire relationship. But it's such a small thing, so for him it's not a big deal but for me it feels like I can't trust anything he says. And he doesn't understand what kind of impact small things can make. He thinks I'm annoying, overreacting and only think black and white. Here's the whole 'issue':
I askes him if he already cleaned the water fountain for the cats and he said 'Yes I already did', but turned out he didn't. The thing is, he has a hard time helping around the household. We made a calendar where we switch with only this water fountain and cleaning cat litter. I always need to ask him and he always postpones. So I was surprised and happy, but he just lied.
And while I'm writing this I keep thinking I am reaaaally overreacting, but I'm once again downplaying my feelings and these trust issues won't go away as long as this is happening. I'm working so hard with therapy etc to heal from ptsd, and it feels like he's always setting me back at some point. And than blaming me for my PTSD symptoms because it's not okay to feel or react this way.
Does anyone else have issues with lies, even small ones like these??
I askes him if he already cleaned the water fountain for the cats and he said 'Yes I already did', but turned out he didn't. The thing is, he has a hard time helping around the household. We made a calendar where we switch with only this water fountain and cleaning cat litter. I always need to ask him and he always postpones. So I was surprised and happy, but he just lied.
And while I'm writing this I keep thinking I am reaaaally overreacting, but I'm once again downplaying my feelings and these trust issues won't go away as long as this is happening. I'm working so hard with therapy etc to heal from ptsd, and it feels like he's always setting me back at some point. And than blaming me for my PTSD symptoms because it's not okay to feel or react this way.
Does anyone else have issues with lies, even small ones like these??