maybeiamabear
Confident
It was very recent that I asked my therapist about m diagnosis, she said it's C-PTSD. Last couple of months have been very difficult for me. I got very close to a person I started working with, she worked with my company and we got super close. Due to my past trauma, I have a tendency to overgive in all relationships initially and then later on share my needs but by the time I do, the person I am expressing my needs to is not comfortable meeting my needs - because in the first half of the relationship I never gave any importance or preference to my own needs.
For two years, I kept helping her with her work her as a friend because she needed me. And then this year in Jan. I found out that she lied to me about this solo trip she went to. She slept with someone and we had this huge fight. And now I learnt that she is dating someone else.
I am happy for her that she has someone but I am very very sad for myself because this is a pattern which constantly follows me. I fall in love with someone madly. They also say that they love me but then they go and find someone else and dont even tell me about it.
I feel unlovable, i feel no one will ever love me and i feel this is too much to live through.
For two years, I kept helping her with her work her as a friend because she needed me. And then this year in Jan. I found out that she lied to me about this solo trip she went to. She slept with someone and we had this huge fight. And now I learnt that she is dating someone else.
I am happy for her that she has someone but I am very very sad for myself because this is a pattern which constantly follows me. I fall in love with someone madly. They also say that they love me but then they go and find someone else and dont even tell me about it.
I feel unlovable, i feel no one will ever love me and i feel this is too much to live through.