Hope I'll be the last diary I'll ever write

[Givrali]

I can't blame her. She was lacking important information. But I was getting very interested in N. Her way to be was making her look so attractive to me even if physically she wouldn't got my attention in a first look. Her personality makes her looks so beautiful to me

It hurt me badly someone I love seemed to betrays me like this in public

 

[Givrali]

I can't stop thinking in black and white view. It's unnatural to me.

I brain-ly know it's an accident and I can progress and learn how to better present things to avoid that kind of hurting mistakes

 

[Givrali]

I just want to leave the group because I don't fit with my fear of intimacy. I also know I won't stop fearing it if I only run away

I also want to leave because I hate me and don't want me to get a chance to heal

 

[Givrali]

If the part of me that hate myself could be separated from me it would probably hit me to death

 

[Givrali]

If the part of me that hate myself could be separated from me it would probably hit me to death

It scares me how much I hate myself

 

[Givrali]

How can I hate myself so much ? I didn't anything so bad

 

[Givrali]

I'm a girl who keeps forgetting she's not alone anymore

 

[Givrali]

Someone I have great estimate for about me :
You're clever

 

[Givrali]

I finally manage to use my vacuum cleaner

 

[Givrali]

I really want to keep writing my story but I'm too sleepy so good night

 

[Givrali]

I'm about to sleep. Yeah go to sleep brain. NOW

 

[RVA21]

I can relate a lot with your feelings, it takes time to change the negative thoughts and process the past trauma. But please know this, you deserve to be happy in life.