Feeling suicidal

[Courtneyy]

Hi @Courtneyy. How are you doing now? I'm so sorry to hear about your daughter, and I hope that her problems are fixable. I don't have kids, so can't even imagine your stress there. But I *have* had brain issues--that took a long time to diagnose--so I know how scary that can be.

Keep us posted!

She hasn’t got a tumour she just has an infection! I’m struggling, my boyfriend is arguing at me which causing me pain

 

[whiteraven]

She hasn’t got a tumour she just has an infection! I’m struggling, my boyfriend is arguing at me which causing me pain

I saw in your diary! I'm so glad it is not something serious. Do you have anyone else--besides your boyfriend--who can offer support?

 

[Courtneyy]

I saw in your diary! I'm so glad it is not something serious. Do you have anyone else--besides your boyfriend--who can offer support?

I don’t unfortunately. Both parents are t alive, and I don’t have family near by. I’m alone in this.

 

[Weemie]

Children’s hospitals are amazing places. With the best people.

For all of the bitching I do about the medical care in NS, I cannot deny that my care at the IWK and RD was top-notch. Those clinicians are true souls of steel folks. They saw the worst shit day in and day out and dealt with kids & teens with severe, terrifying trauma/conflict history without batting an eyelid.

Including those of us who ended up violent/reactive as a result && still treated us like human beings. && that is not to even include all the kids that weren't abused but were just sick from cancer or genetic anomalies or congenital issues or accidents or any number of things.

If it weren't for my clinician thru the IWK I never would have gotten into the appropriate treatment that absolutely 100% saved my life.

 

[Courtneyy]

I feel better know my daughter is ok

 

[Courtneyy]

Feeling suicidal

 

[Courtneyy]

Emotions are high

 

[Dynamic]

Sitting with you @Courtneyy.

Sometimes honest people are right about us if they see something in us that were doing wrong or..something like that.

I can tell you tho ..some other people might lie to you about your worth. About who you really are and especially if they are abusive.

You and your daughter need to move on from this. And I know how difficult it is to deal with trauma and kids. My trauma involved my kids.

Recovery is possible. It may feel like too far to where you need or want to get...but that can be your tired mind not seeing a way right now.

Give yourself love and grace and time. Here for you.

Also did law enforcement offer you any other resources to reach out to?

 

[Courtneyy]

Sitting with you @Courtneyy.

Sometimes honest people are right about us if they see something in us that were doing wrong or..something like that.

I can tell you tho ..some other people might lie to you about your worth. About who you really are and especially if they are abusive.

You and your daughter need to move on from this. And I know how difficult it is to deal with trauma and kids. My trauma involved my kids.

Recovery is possible. It may feel like too far to where you need or want to get...but that can be your tired mind not seeing a way right now.

Give yourself love and grace and time. Here for you.

Also did law enforcement offer you any other resources to reach out to?

They have yes but I don’t know if they will be any hope! They also helped me with victim of abuse support.

 

[Dynamic]

I'm sure once you are ready, the resources would be of some help at least. It's worth a try when you're ready.

Have you been able to manage eating? For me I ate chocolate for dinner I think so I'm gonna make sure I have food for breakfast.

 

[Courtneyy]

I'm sure once you are ready, the resources would be of some help at least. It's worth a try when you're ready.

Have you been able to manage eating? For me I ate chocolate for dinner I think so I'm gonna make sure I have food for breakfast.

I’ve had a meal deal. Had a burger yesterday. Feeling very good now that I’ve managed to have a shower! Laylas asleep

 

[Dynamic]

Ok glad you ate