Was reminded of being screwed-over more than a year ago, thought it was unintentional but now realize it likely was definitely intentional/ other priorities or choices prevailed. That makes me want to cut and run, because I realize now it was on purpose. And a simple phone call or text could have spared me, but they avoided that too, because it was intentionally misleading. That indicates they have no regard for me, or worse. Maybe how I feel in the current circumstance reminded me, Idk, as it is otherwise unrelated. Other than perhaps extrapolating based on today. Seeing or feeling the truth in retrospect maybe.
Seems to me forgiveness is for the birds. It's like dumbing down and setting yourself up to be abused or treated like a no-mind, when nothing changes.
That is how I feel. though feelings aren't facts, but facts produce feelings. You can forgive all you want, but the words or actions have done their damage and made their point when there is no apology or responsibilty taken.
I hadn’t thought of him in years.
) I became obsessed with learning about the horse actors. It’s hard to qualify how much I love watching horses in movies. I like watching how bored they look while the humans are exchanging dialogue, or how willing they are to do certain action scenes. I read that Russell Crowe’s main horse didn’t get along with other horses but had one buddy, and that Russell Crowe worked with it in multiple movies because he liked it so much.
