Childhood Navigating Life After Childhood Sexual Abuse

[Lola234]

So, as I've already said, I went through child sexual abuse when I was 3-5. However, it still affects me in many ways. I repressed those memories until certain age and since then, it bothers me.
I don't know how to start. More than one people abused me. So, as I've already said, I went through child sexual abuse when I was 3-5. However, it still affects me in many ways. I repressed those memories until certain age and since then, it bothers me.
I don't know how to start. More than one people abused me. I don't remember who exactly they were or what did they look like. But I'm quite sure one of them was someone known by my family, and the other one was someone in kindergarten.
One of those perps used to grope me, made me touch his, you know what and did other stuff I'll talk about later. I still feel so dirty.

 

[Sideways]

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[Lola234]

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Oh, okay, I'm sorry.

 

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[Dark.Green.Feathers]

I’m sorry, that’s really hard.
You can talk about it at your own pace here and it isn’t your fault. I know it’s hard to feel clean again after any sexual abuse but I hope it can start to feel less so. You shouldn’t have to feel that way about yourself for being taken advantage of.

 

[mszl]

I'm sorry that happened to you. You are brave and strong to open up. Keep that up - on your own pace and terms.

 

[Lola234]

I’m sorry, that’s really hard.
You can talk about it at your own pace here and it isn’t your fault. I know it’s hard to feel clean again after any sexual abuse but I hope it can start to feel less so. You shouldn’t have to feel that way about yourself for being taken advantage of.

Thank you so much.

I'm sorry that happened to you. You are brave and strong to open up. Keep that up - on your own pace and terms.

Thank you.

 

[Lola234]

I'm not feeling very well and I feel like sharing my story...
So, as I've already said, my perp used to grope me and made me giving him hand jobs. He also rubbed his, you know what, against my thighs and legs... it's gross,after all, I was only 3-4. Sometimes, after rubbing his thing against me, he even cummed on me. For example, he rubbed it against my thighs and legs and then he cummed on my private parts... sorry, it's gross.
I think that's all for now. I feel like crying.

 

[mszl]

sorry, it's gross

You don't have to be sorry. You need to get it out of your system.

 

[Lola234]

You don't have to be sorry. You need to get it out of your system.

Thank you

 

[SophieBernstein]

Girl, you don't haceñve to say sorry, It's perfectly normal to feel sad and really bad about it. It's gross, yes, but not because of you. You were and inocent baby, you did nothing at all. But even grossnthings happened it doesn't make you gross, you were a little inocent beautiful baby, and then, you were exactly the same. You are worthy and you are not dirty or something like that. You are just yourself. Sorry if i don't explain well myself, It's my second language ^^

 

[Lola234]

Girl, you don't haceñve to say sorry, It's perfectly normal to feel sad and really bad about it. It's gross, yes, but not because of you. You were and inocent baby, you did nothing at all. But even grossnthings happened it doesn't make you gross, you were a little inocent beautiful baby, and then, you were exactly the same. You are worthy and you are not dirty or something like that. You are just yourself. Sorry if i don't explain well myself, It's my second language ^^

Thank you. I understand. I really appreciate your support.