What Has Been Your Weirdest Trigger?

[Kaii]

My dog sleeps at the end of my bed on a beige coloured dog bed. Three days ago, my bf had his black pyjama pants draped over half of the dog bed. When I walked into our bedroom later that morning , I saw out of the corner of my eye what I thought was a leg hanging out of a black garbage bag. I froze and my heart went into my throat. It was Sarah's leg hanging out of a garbage bag, I was sure of it. I was there again. I was in the woods and Sarah was in a garbage bag. The horror was intense.

But it was only my bf's black pygama pants draped over the dog bed.....

 

[Kintsugi]

Pulling clothes over my head or my eyes being obscured in the shower. Also, uncovered windows when it is dark outside, but that is not as strange to me. Also, beds with nothing under them and space between the bed and the floor. I can't stand these things. When I wash my face in the shower, I have a panic attack, even though I enjoy the feeling of washing my face in an environment where I don't have to put back my hair and not splash recklessly and stuff. Oh, the inconveniences of these things.

 

[arcc14]

Cicadas. I have to remind myself not to freak out about the sound of them every time I walk out the door. We are having one of those summers where the 13 year cicadas wake up and make a whole lot of noise. I think that's probably the weirdest, and I have no idea what it is about it. Last time they were out was 1998. I do remember standing on the back porch talking about the cicadas with my stepfather back then.

Edit: I think I figured it out. My brother was 11 in 1998. I remember because he was on the Orioles baseball team and was playing on the 11 year old field. I decided to talk to my mom about my stepfather at one of his baseball games. And I could hear the cicadas when I told my mom. And she got mad at me for "acting like I was being molested or something" and saying it so loudly so that others could hear (which I did on purpose since I somehow knew she wouldn't believe me). Wow. Maybe it's not weird to freak out hearing the cicadas.

 

[Kintsugi]

Cicadas.

This is actually probably my weirdest trigger too. I've forgotten it mostly because cicadas haven't been around me in mass since 2004 or 2005, but that's when my abusive boyfriend situation was happening. There were cicadas *everywhere* that summer.

Also: dog/cat doors. My garage had a cat door and this was often where my trauma with BF occurred. I would stare at the cat door and hope that my kitties wouldn't come in while I was in such a horrible condition, under that pig and crying and such. *shudder*

 

[BrazenBull]

For me it has to be camera flashes or lightning, occasionally theres a thunder storm going on right now, I wont be getting any sleep, also I get real tense looking ahead in dark hallways (I have no idea why )
Everything else isn't so weird like when people touch me (even a little tap on the shoulder), tell me to look in there eyes, talking to people, people walking my way, people waving to me, stuff like that.

 

[The Albatross]

My weirdest one is medical centers and hospitals... the shiney floors, the uniforms. I almost bled to death from a botched tonscelectomy (sp?) at 6 and was hospitalized in an oxygen tent at 2.... I just want to avoid and get away. If I have to stay, I get light headed and I would pass out. Now I just want to disassociate. I stay in the room, but not in my body at times. If there's blood present.... forget about it. I'm a goner.

 

[Innordinate]

Weirdest one is mirrors. I have no idea really where this one comes from though. That'd be why it's the weirdest one I guess.

 

[Kintsugi]

Mirrors--again, one of my triggers, too. Mostly unexplained. There was a full-length mirror in my brother's room that I vividly remember in flashbacks... otherwise I blame the horror movie industry. Every time I see a mirror in a scary movie my CNS freaks out waiting for them to pull the whole... first you're alone in the mirror, but wait! Now there is a serial murderer/rapist behind you! thing they do.

 

[Innordinate]

Every time I see a mirror in a scary movie my CNS freaks out waiting for them to pull the whole... first you're alone in the mirror, but wait! Now there is a serial murderer/rapist behind you! thing they do.

sounds plausible

 

[Spero3]

I am triggered by smells. The smell of a public school (especially the bathrooms) really bothered me. I absolutely hated school for so many reasons, I cannot even begin to name them. It's ironic that I work part-time as a substitute teacher! I think that has desensitized me. The worst is liver. I physically gag at the smell. One of my mother's sadistic habits was to cook food that she knew we hated and then make us eat it. For me it was liver. She would put a time and wooden spoon on the table. If we didn't eat it by the time the timer went off, we got a beating. Of course, this just made me scared and caused me to feel nauseous. A few years ago, my ex husband ordered liver at dinner. I thought maybe I had changed, so I asked him for a bite. As the bite got near my mouth, the smell hit me and it was all I could do not to react very strongly.

 

[Kaii]

The worst is liver. I physically gag at the smell. One of my mother's sadistic habits was to cook food that she knew we hated and then make us eat it. For me it was liver. She would put a time and wooden spoon on the table. If we didn't eat it by the time the timer went off, we got a beating. Of course, this just made me scared and caused me to feel nauseous. A few years ago, my ex husband ordered liver at dinner. I thought maybe I had changed, so I asked him for a bite. As the bite got near my mouth, the smell hit me and it was all I could do not to react very strongly.

Reading this made me feel so very sad :( As a mother of three children, I would like to put my arms around your inner child and say "you did not deserve this".

 

[Kintsugi]

As a mother of three children, I would like to put my arms around your inner child and say "you did not deserve this"

Let's all hope that we can add light through our own parenting to offset some of this INSANITY that is allowed to go on!