Poll Do You Have Secrets About Your Trauma That You've Not Divulged To Your Therapist?

[SimplyComplex]

I responded yes. But it is not intentional. I "skip" things I feel unimportant or I have trouble finding words for only later to realize they are very important. Sometimes I worry I will sound alarmist if I make a "big deal" about something too...it goes back to my childhood I guess. I also tend to block out things in my therapy session. Its like somethings are just right behind a wall. I would like to say them, I know they are there. But I can't see them, let alone show her. Once I leave the office, I can usually remember right away.

I have talked to my t about it and she is pretty low key about it. Says it will come in time, she rarely pushes. But then I do enough pushing for the both of us, I think.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

and took me to usually really piss them off in order to get at those secrets and get them out. Seen as though 95% of therapists are too afraid to piss their clients off, I do wonder just how many hold secrets about their trauma from their therapist/s to date!

I really wish my T would piss me off. Push me. I avoid eye contact with him so much that it gets easier and easier to avoid the subject. I just need that intense session. I realize he can be soft with me, he is a lot older then me..I think that has something to do with it.

Hmm...I will raise this with him next session.

My whole childhood is one big secret. Even to me!

 

[Rob_Dog19]

My first T who I saw for 3 years didn't know half of what really happened to me, she just doled out my medications and made sure I wasn't suicidal so she could report back to the mental hospital beause of the "lesser restrictive alternative" we never got to do any real talking. My current T who I have been working with for 6 years, know tons more, but there is still a lot that she doesn't know, and I don't want to tell her because I'm afraid that if I start talking about the really bad things, I won't be able to get them out of my head, and she'll want to keep revisiting the events...I don't think I could handle it...I would have a psychotic break and get committed again...

 

[Nighthawk]

I am trying to open the doors to get to the information I get scared of it and run from them. I am slowly letting him see the scares. The point is I am getting safer every week and hope to open the doors all the way. Just this statment alone is scary.

 

[Elphaba]

I never had a T for more than four months, so I never got to build up the confidence

 

[Rob_Dog19]

I never had a T for more than four months, so I never got to build up the confidence

that's too bad :( haven't found the right one yet? I hated having an interim T when i got out of the hospital until an adolescent specialist could step in...4 sessions in two weeks isn't enough to build any sort of rapport.

 

[Elphaba]

that's too bad :( haven't found the right one yet? I hated having an interim T when i got out of the hospital until an adolescent specialist could step in...4 sessions in two weeks isn't enough to build any sort of rapport.

I am with public health care service, and got a student T. When she went back to school there were noone else available, and now I have no T at all... (yes, pretty frustrating)

 

[KP the nut]

BUT I have not told him all my childhood trauma including why I deserve such crap in my life.

We are now looking at this as it is a reason for my nightmares and why I feel so trapped. Damn crappy past always comes back.

 

[shell]

My whole childhood is one big secret. Even to me!

This is how I feel, recently I saw my brother and we were discussing things. He knew more about me in the past than I did. At least he was able to confirm a memory I recovered recently, I couldn't believe I could have suppressed something so major. It's very difficult to discuss partial memories.

 

[KP the nut]

I answered no to begin with. I couldn't tell him at first. Now time is passing and I have told him everything.

It still hurts me and it is difficult. I know he can't fix me but with his guidance I am learning to manage the negative emotions.

 

[heidi]

great thread. I wanted to go into therapy and tell only certain things and not everything. My therapist understood that. Now she is pushing me to divulge more and at first I thought no way. but now after thinking about it and after having a terrible week ...and when I say terrible I mean sub-terrible. I can't wait to tell a little more. I never thought I would tell anyone. The idea that I might is crazy. It's also I think going to be really good. I never thought I would have the opportunity. I could only imagine telling someone who is half deaf, half dying, or really doesn't care anyway. The idea of telling a cognizant person is crazy.

 

[Incendiu]

Well, I have never talked more about my trauma that deep with my therapist. I just cant, but she know sort of that this and that have happened. And as Lucycat I probably would answer if I was asked but I cant begin. My therapist works by KBT-teori and for me sha have focused more to give me tools to handle the problems the trauma gave me. And it have worked for me, for now.

I also have problems with feeling vulnerable...Only my bf knows everything.