Do you have documents/photos/writings/objects/etc. from the time of your trauma?

[frogthroat]

I got rid of everything that was from that time or reminded me of that time and I'm better off that way. It sends you back whether you're aware of it or not.

 

[alienplantnapper]

No material things.
Just this body.
Even clothing I've worn just in times where my mind wasn't right f*cks me up..
Everything I could possibly let go from times of trauma, was gone with a quickness.

 

[katz]

So...I have kind of a weird thing going on with photos. My dad (one of my abusers) took hundreds of...

I have found old photos of myself also. Most of them are from family vacations and at BBQ's at other peoples houses. I really started looking hard at my own expressions...wow! What I saw in one, I started looking for in all of them - Anger! Fury! I was one angry kid!! No wonder I was such a "problem child". (Or so I've heard)

I have gone back as far as 3-4 years old. I have always been angry. I am amazed how mad this little girl was - and always at the photographer! Hmmm--I wonder why??

 

[whiteraven]

It's funny, @katz. I still see nothing untoward, but my therapist said he thought he saw terror in my eyes. Not sure if that seeing is just an extension of what he's been told, or if there really was something there.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

Thankfully, I have nothing, my abuse ended with me on the street homeless with nothing but the cloths I had on when it all ended. But the memories of it all are just as vivid as pictures would be. Don't need items from the past to remind me, my PTSD does that very well on its own.