It used to feel as if I am walking on a very very thin layer of ice, anxious knowing that it would break with the slightest wrong foot put forward. Which often happened and made me rage. When raging, I felt like screaming for help while drowning in ice cold water yet there's nobody to listen.
Now it feels like I am just floating ,frozen, around in a deep navy icy ocean, so cold that all my senses are numb.