Thanks for the healing hugs Lionheart, and it was a pleasure to respond here.
It is totally depressing and frustrating to be chronically ill,
Yes, and I can just hear from this thread and all your words that you know this all too well. I am so sorry that you're experiencing so much exhaustion, stress and illness as well.
We are not alone and we will see many releases and improvements as well, throughout our lives. We already can pretty well trust that we will experience the suffering, fears and doubts that result from multiple disorders, but lets remember that we too will likely
really, really, really, really appreciate and enjoy those times of great release, as well as, the spiritually felt connection and bond to some amazing people, ...others with chronic illness and maintaining good spirit regardless.
I only hope in this lifetime to once again, become even close to being one of these amazing people and in spite of whatever illness comes my way. There's been a lot of healing in my life in prior yrs., and I was once given a whole new spirit and (life) some years of contributing and experiencing life that was pretty darn amazing.
Life has its surprises though, and sometimes significant choices are made that though perhaps well intentioned are not always wise. I've made some wrong choices in my life and just one of these were reuniting with my family of origin (abusive people) after my children were born. This was one of the absolute biggest mistakes of my life, perhaps. Having parted, detached and escaped them, I had no business reconnecting with them out of survivors guilt, feelings of obligation, a twisted sense of loyalty and martyrdom, as well as, confronted with fixed childhood emotional needs. - This was all just my huge error.
I totally understand how overwhelming it can be, especially when illness is a result of injury/assault.
It was a older sister who caused some of the damage to my eyes. Her violence focused upon my eyes and head. Even as I say this I am reminded that it is wise for me to get a skin growth that has been been developing just below my left eye checked out. I had been reading one day in the last several months about cancerous growths developing in later yrs. at the site of an traumatic impact and it's location is precisely where the bottom half of a circular steel object that she assaulted me with impacted. Just something increasingly worrisome that I've got to get examined in order to find out if it's serious as it is widening and covering much more of my cheek bone then when it first appeared.
Lionheart, I know you asked us all here to share some about us and multiple health problems or disorders if we have them, ...(
as well as the other questions - ...I haven't forgotten), but I feel just awful doing so. It doesn't feel right to say so much. Please tell me if I get too wordy or simply say too much here. I feel awkward.
Also, Angelkeeper after reading about the medicating effects you find in marijuana, I considered off and on all day, :D perhaps that will help me as well, ...I need to start smoking some marijuana ;). Shucks, where I live it's a no go still, I
may end up wishing to and starting this late in life, (smiles), late-late in life, especially if I wait til the law for legal use of it passes around here.
(smiles Angelkeeper and cyber-hugs)
Wishing you all good spirit, laughter and improvements Lionheart, Angelkeeper and Sammy.
