Overwriting? It Makes Me Look Nuts!

[Tootilla]

I noticed a lot of "journaling" here. My name for typing too much. It just seems like sometimes writing helps you figure stuff out.I'm always so ashamed after I type too much.Like I have no self control. I'm practing short answers here. Is this typocal for PTSD? I hope so!

 

[Tinyflame]

I don't know if it's typical Tootilla, but I believe having difficulty expressing ourselves, or identifying what we feel and conveying it, can be.

I feel a sense of shame and vulnerability and 'stupidness' or self-doubt, frequently after I post also, if that's any consolation.

You're doing fine, it's brave to post. :hug:

 

[Tootilla]

Gotcha! I'll think about it and reply later! I'm so tired of the shame and self doubt thing. Something tells me you know what I'm talking about though! So comforting!

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((((Tootilla)))))))

 

[Tootilla]

Xoxo! And thanks!

 

[Loveneverfails]

I tend to post a lot too, but mostly I consider any posting done in your diary is your 'safe place'. People may not respond, but it doesn't mean they think you're crazy. You're working through whatever you're feeling, like you said. Don't worry about it. For a lot of us, we've kept our feelings and memories inside for so long it almost seems like we're making up for those years of silence.

 

[Tootilla]

Well I think Junebug had it butI tend to open up more when engaged therefore projecting myself at other people. People who want to but couldn't understand. Not their fault, but therein lies the shame I guess.Someone shows an inkling of understanding or empathy and gets a novel in return.Otherwise I would just keep a dairy. It seems so intenal though which is where it has been.
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[Tootilla]

Oh I didn't mean you guys! Haha!I'd be more like "oh they're listening so I'll keep talking"Or trying to to explain the last thing I said that sounded nuts. Until I can't explain why I have to. Does that make sense?

 

[Sues]

I have a folder on my computer where I put all of the stuff I write. I write a lot to vent and to deal with all of the crap I go through. It does help.

 

[Whitneys story]

Tootilla, Have you read the article about emptying the cup? Whichever method works for you is the right one. We are never alone here.

The most fantastic part of the forum is we are not judged. Around every corner is another person working through their journey! I admire your writing. Hugs, Whitney

 

[Whitneys story]

(((((((((((((((Everyone))))))))))))))) I feel the shame part comes from past invalidation and programming. Our brains must relearn that we are not who most of us have been trained to be or feel. Allowing oneself to rise above the fear and experience who we really are. JMHO Whitney

 

[Abstract]

I actually think that any means of expressing ones emotions healthily and coping healthily is a great idea. I have felt like you have and in the past have needed to post online every day. I also have needed to post long posts as my ability to express myself and feel heard and understood is very impaired. That is laregely linked to childhood stuff and a negative long term T experience. As that has improved I have been able to be more succinct. Essentially I agree with Junebug.