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M said that my healing was the best success story, that she couldn't believe how much I had changed. If she was alive I could ask her about that today.
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I'm told that if you believe in the afterlife, you can still talk to those who went ahead of us. I do it sometimes. More like little quips instead of outright conversations. I'm sure she is still proud of you, though she would know that you have been struggling.
My heart goes out to you Ms Spock!
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I'm missing my mother and seriously regretting that I haven't been able to coordinate time and logistics in order to go visit, or to see her these last number of weeks. I'm very worried about her too.
If I didn't have any intelligent compassion for myself with some understanding for limitations, along with that knowledge of too great of obstacles for me to surmount in order to see her, ...well, then I'd think I was a selfish, ungrateful, hell'a'va damn daughter.
However, since this is not the case - at least for now, I don't believe this, well then other's can think what they may. It's her that I'm concerned with letting know that I love her. Having said that I feel afraid, ...and must again talk with her very soon by phone if still unable to get there. :banghead:
If I didn't have any intelligent compassion for myself with some understanding for limitations, along with that knowledge of too great of obstacles for me to surmount in order to see her, ...well, then I'd think I was a selfish, ungrateful, hell'a'va damn daughter.
However, since this is not the case - at least for now, I don't believe this, well then other's can think what they may. It's her that I'm concerned with letting know that I love her. Having said that I feel afraid, ...and must again talk with her very soon by phone if still unable to get there. :banghead:
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Thanks Britt
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My husband died in Nov. of 2005. My children all died before they were born; I had seven miscarriages. I moved from a place I loved, and folks I adored, because it was a tourist city and I could no longer afford to live there (Clearwater, Fla). Now I live way out in the North Carolina Mountains, near the border of Tenn. The town I live in, Andrews, has 2600 folks in it, all spread out. I travel, if I must, by transit, which is door to door vans mostly, or sometimes a big bus if enough folks are going that way. It is $10 per day and does not run on holidays. I travel seldomly. So I am alone with my PTSD Service dog most of my days.
(((Sheila)))
Hugs to you!.....I'm sooo sorry for all that's happened to you! I'm glad you have a furry friend to keep you company. :hug:
ms spock
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I am missing my little sister.
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THanks Sailorgal. I'm glad I have my Service dog too, or I'd go nuts. I'm seriously thinking, when she retires (they are supposed to be allowed to retire at age 9 or 10 [she's 5]) of going into an Assisted Living Facility, just so I won't have to be all alone. I doubt I'll be up to training another Service Dog and they cost usually $20,000 or more to buy one, which is entirely out of my league!
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Britt, I'm glad it was not overwelming for you. I so hate that when it is, been there, done that!
THankfully I was just able to call my sister and we had a good long talk. She sent me 2 phone cards for Christmas, so I used up one of them maybe today talking with her, but it was worth it. Not to have a totally empty day, thank God, was such a blessing for this usually empty and sorrowful day.
I'm glad I did not sit around and rue the past year over in my mind either. One can focus on all that went wrong in 2012, but thankfully I did not do that at all. Instead, I am reading up on my new exercise ladies weights and how to use them to the max good. THey are not just some New Years resolution, I planned on buying them when I got the money saved up and I am glad I did. I so need to exercise! My lungs have weakened in the last year to the point that if I walk and talk at the same time I get out of breath, not to mention if I walk at all for any distance more than a block or so! I will be asking my dr. about this too, in about 10 days when I have my yearly check-up.
Anyway, as to who I'm missing to do with this, I am missing the YMCA and everyone that worked there in the last city I lived it. This town has no gym!
THankfully I was just able to call my sister and we had a good long talk. She sent me 2 phone cards for Christmas, so I used up one of them maybe today talking with her, but it was worth it. Not to have a totally empty day, thank God, was such a blessing for this usually empty and sorrowful day.
I'm glad I did not sit around and rue the past year over in my mind either. One can focus on all that went wrong in 2012, but thankfully I did not do that at all. Instead, I am reading up on my new exercise ladies weights and how to use them to the max good. THey are not just some New Years resolution, I planned on buying them when I got the money saved up and I am glad I did. I so need to exercise! My lungs have weakened in the last year to the point that if I walk and talk at the same time I get out of breath, not to mention if I walk at all for any distance more than a block or so! I will be asking my dr. about this too, in about 10 days when I have my yearly check-up.
Anyway, as to who I'm missing to do with this, I am missing the YMCA and everyone that worked there in the last city I lived it. This town has no gym!
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