What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

I am feeling like I am doing okay today. I am feeling like there is lots to do, but I am doing it.

 

[Philippa]

frustrated at being misunderstood and patronized by women much younger than me. I hate that.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling so jubilant. I restarted my goal of 10 Dips in the Ocean in 5 Days! It was freezing going in. Another woman came in and she squealed and laughed. I said "Right on!!" and we all laughed. The four of us in the water!

So I caught 10 waves with my boogie board.

I am physically well enough to exercise again!

 

[rainy_daze]

I've spent a lot of time catching up on this thread, so apologies for the long post; it's been a moving experience and I wanted to reply to many posts. I would like to give you all a metaphorical hug (if you don't like the hugs, then a nice smile, or a nice biscuit, whatever you want). You all deserve some nice things for being such a great bunch of people, who often help me with my problems by replying to me (and often without knowing it too, just from posting about how you feel or how you cannot feel). Thank you all so much.

I noticed that life really is a rollercoaster from reading so many pages of this. There are ups, there are downs, there is a lack of being able to feel or understand. At the same time I noticed a great deal of support. I think this thread is very helpful, and it can be used as part of healing - be that expressing yourself as a sufferer or a supporter.

I am terrified. If I can't find some more work within the next 2 weeks I will not be able to pay my rent.

I wasn't sure if you were still looking for suggestions, or where you are in the world, but in Scotland we have the Citizens Advice. Wherever you are, I think it would be good to search on the internet for advice places to help you with your situation. I hope you find the answers you need to fix your situation GreenFrog2.

I suggest a water pistol. And if they are nasty spray them with water and say each time you are nasty you will be sprayed.

I adore this suggestion, and may use this to threaten people when they are being nasty ;).

Ptsd is a real f*ck.

That is a fantastic expression, I have stolen it as my own. I also wish that Tom Petty song had that as a lyric in it (I love the lyrics to that song, heard it in my head immediately when you wrote "I won't back down", thank you for reminding me of it winterose).

I wont give up that fight. I can't.

Ayesha, it's really nice to read a post from you, I feel like I haven't read one in a while. You are right not to give up. PTSD is a fight. I hope you don't mind me saying so, but keep fighting.

I spent an hour laying with my hubby watching tv this morning. So why do I feel so sad along with the comfort?

I can't answer that, but I've felt similar before. It's really difficult to feel conflicting emotions I think. I hope that feels better for you soon, and you can take the positive emotions that come from the comfort.

Feeling a bit overwhelmed by how much I have to do in my life.

I feel this way a lot in my life Ms Spock, you are not alone. I often get so overwhelmed, I don't do the things that need to get done. I suppose it's about trying to balance everything and take one thing at a time. I was glad to read you've been managing as well though.

((((((Safenow))))))...You did not kill your friend a truly evil person did. Your sadness at her loss proves how much you care. You are not responsible. I wish you peace and I wish I could reach out and hug you. :hug:

This post is where the how I feel part comes in. I feel: physically sore, emotionally raw, scared, guilty, exhausted, while also feeling hopeful, strong, and that I am on my way to learning to cope better (I need to start putting things into action now). I chose what you said to Safenow, CraftyCath, because it struck a chord with me.

(@safenow: please accept my apologies for using part of your life to explain part of mine; no hurt is meant towards you by using it, and I want you to know that you are so brave for being able to share part of your past with people on here - that is something I struggle with - I do not mean to cause you any upset by mentioning it.) After my best friend was murdered, I blamed myself. In many ways, I still do. I often feel as if I should have saved her, and it should have been me who died, because she was a better person than me. I have felt this way (for a very long time) to the point where I stopped living my life, as if I was somehow not worthy. As if I did not deserve any happiness. What CC said is so true. Do not take the responsibility for something you did not do, and could not have prevented. I am so glad you wrote that CC. I was upset to read what you said Safenow, but I am also glad you were given a comment in reply that is truthful. Thank you CC and Safenow. Thank you both for helping me recognise something within myself that I need to finally start believing. The guilt of surviving something should be in the past, and I need to let that go. I wish you all the best with learning to cope Safenow.

Feeling raw, and needing sleep, I would like to finish on a positive note, and hope this cheers anyone up who needs it:

I am feeling very good. I had a wonderful day today.

I hope we can all have these days that you treasure Gizmo, and I wish for you to have many more with what you're going through.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I hope you don't mind me saying so, but keep fighting.

I don't mind at all. I appreciate the support. Thanks. :tup:

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Feeling...down but there is hope.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Feeling as if I will never be free of the fear, hurt, anger, hatred, remorse, guilt, frozen-ness, confusion and exhaustion.

Feeling like non of this was my fault and I did not reserve it, so why did it happen. I was a child with so much potential and have only been able to realize a small part of that - then what I had was taken away from me.

It makes no sense and I don't understand any of it.

 

[MomOfTwo]

I had such a great day today and felt joy. I have never enjoyed my birthday and since children that has changed. I felt so much joy seeing my childrens faces presenting me with presents. Their joy was the best present. I have always been a bit upset or depressed on my birthday and this is the first one I have not. I feel so good about that. I went out for breakfast with my twins which was really hard because I am so anxious. I feel good about that. I want to be the mother to them that I never had. I feel proud and accomplished today to have been able to go out in public and get through it. My MIL called and sang me happy birthday as well. I am feeling good that I have surrounded myself with people who are capable of loving me. The hard part is my acceptance of it and feeling safe about it which I am working on.

 

[goingonhope]

Exhausted, grieved and challenged.

 

[ms spock]

I went to a class so that was good.

I felt separate and apart from everyone though in reality I participated just as much as anyone else. And people interacted with me just fine.

I did fine at class. I came home and felt some emotions. I felt lost and apart from people. I felt friendless.

 

[who am i kim]

Spock I would like to say you are not friendless, there are many people on here that are your friends. :);)

 

[ms spock]

Thanks Kim.

I am feeling bad about myself.