Sufferer Survivor Of Gun Violence

[cattsrangels2]

After I posted that I came across something.

Fear is what stops you, and caution is what you proceed with

 

[safenow]

Fear is what stops you, and caution is what you proceed with

Good and accurate quote, cattsrangels2.

 

[cattsrangels2]

Some fear can be good I guess like when our parents taught us to look out for traffic before crossing a street. We would be just afraid enough to back up and think then use caution.

 

[cattsrangels2]

I just woke from one of the most horrible nightmares I have ever had. That a man went into a room with myself and others in it. He had an automatic gun. I was going to call for help but was in danger of being shot. He put his gun down for a moment and when I had the chance I grabbed it. As he came after me I shot him but it didn't phase him. I shot again and it took him down. Then I was able to call but only because I hit him in the head. That kind of gun wasn't even necessary. How could I dream such a horrific thing? I have never even held any gun in my life. I didn't know it was such a sensitive gun. I mean I know from hearing it for myself from the last shooting but to not only handle one myself but to have hurt another person with one, even though it was just a dream has me rattled.

 

[LhasaLover]

Hi Cattsrangels2,

I had some similar dreams years after the death of a dear friend. The dreams were crazy and I could not understand why I was having them. My therapist at the time pointed out that I had been thinking about my friend and death and in our dreams we take the liberty to experiment with topics. The dream, in other words, directly related to what I was trying to work through in my subconscious.

Hope that helps, I know you are going through a tough time. Perhaps that will help put your mind at ease. I know nightmares are no walk in the park, but the interpretation is that it is normal.

Hang in there, you will work it out... you are worth the time!

 

[cattsrangels2]

LhasaLover, I'm sorry I didn't notice the first part of your response before. No, I don't know either shooter. I know we can associate with people and not know they are capable of this but I never knew him at all. After I woke from this dream I was actually nauseated from it. I thought of drinking some calming tea or hot chocolate but felt too sick to. I did manage though to grab and hold a stone I have next to my bed to hold onto. It's a worry stone with an angel in it. It's to ground me.

 

[cattsrangels2]

It's been a rough few days. My cat pushed her stainless steel bowl onto the hardwood floor. It jolted me. I had to catch my breath and grab my worry stone. Between that and that last nightmare I'm spacey and depressed.

 

[cattsrangels2]

Has anyone ever heard of the medicine PRAZOSIN that is used for PTSD nightmares? If so is it ever successful? My therapist and I talked about me going on it. The nightmares about gun violence continues. I had one this morning.

 

[safenow]

Hang tight dear girl. I know it's hard, but it will not be so bad in time.

Wouldn't it be nice if we could speed up that old clock?

Safenow