How Many People Aren't Functioning?

[cdg]

I'm not functioning. Just curious how many other people are debilitated to this point. Or if you are supporting someone who is to this capacity. Feel free to list examples of symptoms that keep it this way. Maybe even people who have been this way before and were able to over come it. Pointers on how they made it as well. Thanks.


I have severe head tension that resulted from my trauma. It makes me incoherent at times. I am unable to think clearly. This has obviously burned out my adrenals to where they respond to everything as a threat. Exaggerated of course but you get the point. I am literally stuck in a room for most of the day. I am over emotional to the point that I can only watch reality programming and read self help books. I cry everyday. 1 to 6 times a day. My depression is severe. I can't take ssri's because I don't respond well to them. That is all I can think of right now.

 

[tired of the fight]

cdg,

I have trouble functioning as well. The "used" to be easy daily tasks are now difficult. I feel for you <3 . It was
suggested to me that I make a list. I always felt like I wasn't doing enough, or not good enough. The list was implemented for me to write down every single thing I do, so I can see how much I really do everyday. I tend to twist it at times, back to the not enough and have to remind myself, that I am doing things. Maybe this will help some, I don't know. PTSD , agorophobia and anxiety, have me all messed up. I'm also a single mother with 3 little ones. I cry too, that's normal I think.

I think it just takes time... a long time. :hug:

 

[Britt.f7]

That was me last year until we found a med combination that worked without side effects or worked period. I never left the house, I cried all the time, I curled up in a ball on my bed and I was definitely suicidal. I went in patient for a brief period while they adjusted meds, with group therapy. Then I had intense outpatient therapy five days a week, kind of inpatient as you were at the hospital daily but slept at home. After this I was outpatient weekly, still am. However I had a slight relapse around this time of year and wouldn't leave my house except for therapy, and barely that.

I have been doing better since about February. I don't find myself crying as much, usually just in therapy. I still have difficulties leaving the house. Even if it is to go out and visit my garden. I live on a busy road. I'm trying to do more, go out more, because my husband works two jobs and has enough on his plate. We have two teenage boys. I push myself to relieve their burden. I do feel like part of that burden.

I have to think that it gets better. I mean, compared to last year, I am better. There is hope.

 

[tired of the fight]

My adrenals are taxed too!! The smallest things, get my nerves going, this is the hardest part for me. I understand what you are saying. Wish I had more pointers, I went into shock initially I think, and to tell you the truth I don't know how I kept going.

I hope it is ok to post books to read. One of my doctors suggested I read the book "When bad things happen to good people",
I found that helped a lot. I'm going to order it, I'd like to read it again.

Wishing you well

 

[tired of the fight]

Britt.f7,

Thanks for the words " There is hope"! I barely leave the house. Only to Dr. appt. Now I have to brace myself, to get the kids to the bus stop. At the end of the school year, last year, I started getting panic attacks at the bus stop. I was wore out and exhausted from trying to keep up. I'm praying it isn't as bad.

I was/am terribly stressed, and praying I can do this. UGh. I'm already sick over it, as mornings are tough on me.

I pray it gets better soon. I'm tired.

 

[nomedic1]

I am not functioning on the emotional side of things, feels like I have a blackened heart that has been stomped on a couple of times, emotionally I am at a loss.

 

[Abstract]

Not sure if you will find this useful but thought I would share.

https://www.myptsd.com/threads/a-great-explanation.21635/

Pointers on how they made it as well.

One of the turning points for me was radical acceptance.

http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/radical_acceptance.html

 

[tired of the fight]

nomedic 1:hug:

Abstract,

I think I'm at the acceptance stage....

Thank you for the link

 

[cdg]

Thanks for the replies so far. Looking for a way to just cope up and function.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Wait....

I just read your benzo thread.

Benzodiazepines CAN help, but since you're experiencing severe depression, I think you should consider examining if Klonopin is adding to your depression. One dose of klonopin sends me into a depressive state for the next 3 or so days. We're talking not wanting to get out of bed at all.

Is there a possibility it's making you worse? Maybe you don't/can't see it? (I've had other med side effects that I attributed to PTSD until I came off the meds and realized it was indeed a result of the medication.)

 

[DMerish]

My adrenals are taxed too!! The smallest things, get my nerves going, this is the hardest part for me.

I want to recommend a book that I found helpful: "Hope and Help for Your Nerves" by Clair Weekes. It is an old book; a small paperback with 200 pages, published 1990, and not complicated at all. It reads like a gentle little old lady wrote it. I believe the author is, or was, a psychiatrist who simply stayed away from psycho-babble to remove the anxiety around having anxiety, depression, insomnia, etc. At the beginning of this year I seriously considered checking myself into a hospital for exhaustion, boarding on a "nervous breakdown" - but this book helped me a lot and alleviated a big bill. You can go to Amazon, look up the book, and under the picture click on the audio button to hear an example of how the book "reads", then buy it used starting at $0.80USD or new for $3.36USD

Drew :p
(no, I am not a sales person or affiliated with the author or publisher at all :-)

 

[cdg]

Thanks for the last 2 replies. I saw it on google books. Have heard great things about Clair Weekes. Will try it out. As for the benzo I'm on the lowest possible dose. It's the physiological tension that has me depressed. It's pretty intense.