General Partner Treating Me Bad... To What Extent Can Ptsd Be His ''excuse''?

[DeedeeRSM]

So what are you going to do about this?

first of all...your dad was an *ss!!!! damnnn

I'm gonna go with him, I don't mind...This is my party, and if he doesnt like it he can just gtfo (excuse my french). You know why I dont mind him going with me? The day after I have an appointment do get a tattoo...I would usually ask him to go with me, as it will hurt afterwards to come home alone, but I just don't feel like it. I PREFER to go alone to this as well...man oh man my feelings have changed. I would ask him to sleep over the day after, but nope, I now prefer sleeping alone...see my drift?

I think it has weared off, all those days and nights I asked him to sleep over and he refused, or to see him and he was too tired or too busy or whatever he was...now I dont even feel like seeing him anymore..I just know that his ''if's'' will never come, and I need to be surrounded by more positivity. I AM positivity and here I am, stuck with mr. negative selfpity.

I do have to admit that I now feel guilty for looking down on him...thats not the kind of person I am at all..but I just cant help it to happen... Wish there was a cure for feelings of guilt of ANY kind.

 

[HëllaBubz]

first of all...your dad was an *ss!!!! damnnn

lol. yeah I'm still working on the trying to forget the rage part. But I permanently estranged him a few weeks ago, and life has been fabulous ever since.

I PREFER to go alone to this as well

I now prefer sleeping alone

Be careful. He may very well sense that you are starting to pull away, and so will get closer so that he doesn't lose his 'door mat'.
I have a feeling this may be what has occurred with your trip that you are going on tomorrow.

Narcissist's HATE independance on the part of other people, so you may find that he gets more and more clingy as you pull away, and will try all sorts of shit to try to make you feel bad, and come back closer to him.
As soon as you come closer, or cave a little, you'll have a good spell, and then the shit will start again.

I do have to admit that I now feel guilty for looking down on him

Don't. Guilt is a favourite tool. If you need help supporting yourself, while you are in this strong period, go get a pen, and write down all the things that are f*cked up that he's done that you hate.
And why it was bad, and what he would say to make it your fault.
All the times he's really let you down, the bullshit excuses, everything you can think of. Manipulative pricks are GREAT at bullshitting around in circles until you start doubting yourself and wondering if it really WAS all that bad.

Keep that list there, and when you start to doubt yourself, go read it. BELIEVE ME, it will help you, and I couldn't have gotten through my most recent estrangement if I hadn't done so.

You need a reminder in those times that your feelings are valid, and anyone that deliberately makes you feel that way is NOT healthy to be around, and you shouldn't put up with it, no matter what excuse they give, or how much they try to make it your fault.